youre

I don't want to wait.
I like you.
But you're 'confused'.
I can sit around and wait for you to figure it out.
(Like I have many other choices.)
But,
What if your confusion just ends as friendship.
Which is ohkay.
I think being together would be hard.
We have two different circles of friends.
That'd be weird.
But,
I can't help it.
I like you.
Huh.
Wonder how this'll turn out.

You're so hypnotizing.

waste of breath

From day one I talked about getting out,
But not forgetting about,
How all my worst fears were letting out.
He said:
"Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
When breathing just passes the time,
Until we all just get old and die.".
Now talkings just a waste of breath,
And livings just a waste of death,
And why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
And this is you and me,
And me and you,
Until we've got nothing left.

fall together

Brrrr.
I am freezing!!

My black nail polish is missing :(
I had to use my mermaidy stuff.

Reading...
Have to run later.
Bored Bored Bored.

Our water's back.
It disappeared for a bit.
Hhehhe.

Watching W@tchmen on my Ipod a lot.
Hhahha, I have NO! life.

Gonna go put my new banner up on Mysp@ce
See Ya.

We will fall together.

upon entering

For the past few days,
Even the thought of eating food makes me nauseous.
Actually looking at it is worse.
But as soon as I start to eat,
It goes away.
I'm so confused.
Even thinking about going to brush my teeth right now is making me feel sick to my stomach.
Ughh.

Went up to the falls in Ithica.
Managed to be the only person who fell on dry rock.
Scraped my hip up nicely.
Very fun.
No really,
It was.
The water was realllyy nice.
Ahh...

Oh yeah,
I also crashed through a door in on a drivers ed class on a spinning rolling chair.
That was fun.
*rollseyes*

Ick,
I'm still dead tired.
I took a 2 hour nap and I'm still ttly blah.

Tomorrow's the full moon.
Yayy :)
I love the full moon.

Any practiced Catholic would cross themselves upon entering.

i cant fight

Soooo....Talked to Barb about my dirty dish problem.
But I kinda only remembered with about 6 minutes to go.
She gave me some stuff do to about it.
And I don't wanna do it.
The idea scares me shitless.
I really confused her,
Cause I have no aversion to other dirty things.
It's just the food for me.
But I have stuff to do,
And I'm not allowed to tell you Mom cause you could end up pressuring me and stressing me out even more which is the opposite of the idea.
I know you wouldn't do it on purpose but still.

I'm getting to be a pretty fast typist when I stop thinking about it and just type.
If I think about it I start messing up and slowing down like right now.
But when I'm not thinking my fingers just kinda work learned behavior.
Some words are super easy because I use them so much.
Like my finger goes straight to the shift button whenever I type "I".
Hhhehhe, its funn :))

Why does my heart cry? Feelings I can't fight.

possibly expect

Creepy neighbor kids.
Ugh.
Family Functions.
Double ugh.
Sure, Jack is cute.
And Maddox.
But still.
Ugh.

What did you possibly expect under these conditions?

the real me

Ohmigod, last night at work me and Mike had to count the number of volunteer hours per person...Over three years.
I got the longest consecutive stint:
22Hours some guy was here.
But he won with the most amount of hours.
Some guy spent 418 hours there.
That's just over 20 days!
Isn't that insane!?
I'm glad I didn't have to count that!
It was funny,
He got the half with the people who are always there.
Hhehhe.
Oh yeah, and Matt broke the pencil sharpener.
It was really funny.
So, I was laughing at him,
Which made him laugh,
and then he was like,
Don't laugh this is tragic and depressing!
So I said, Then why are you laughing?
Hhhahha.
So he kinda trashed the pencil sharpener job.
Then we all looked on Mr.Williams list for somethiing to do.
It was all a bunch of things.....
With no instructions as to how to do them.
One of them was 'Fix Moon'.
I am being completely serious.
He had 'Fix Moon' on his list.
We asked Mr.C to try and figure out the list.
Even he was totally baffled about the Moon thing.
It was great.
Then we had to learn how to load the paper towel thing.
And the toilet was gross apparently.
Idk, I didn't see cause I generally don't go into stalls in the guy's bathroom.
So Matt took it on himself to fix it.
I had to go get the plunger out of the girl's room.
I don't know why, but this was completely hilarious to me.
So they made fun of me for laughing.
All in good fun.
hhahha.
So, me and Mike are changing the paper towels in the Kitchen,
When Matt walks out with the gross plunger...
Which I had to return to the Girl's room :P
Fun stuff.
I also re-organized the Art Supply Closet.
While I was doing that,
The guys were doing a recycling and garbage run.
They went around the place and got all the recyclables and trash to take out.
Well, apparently Mike tripped over a cinder block outside..
And fell into a recycling bin full of water.
hhahhahhahhahhahha!
And that is all the fun stories of the evening.
:D

You can turn all the lights on and show me the real me.