comin down to the ground

*sigh*

Another day of sitting around watching movies. All I did yesterday was:

• Check my stuff on the comp
• Watch Jump Start (Nothing good played.)
• Attempt to shovel the iced over driveway.
• Watch Wall-E and the beginning of Ironman.
• Got Down to Earth by Peter Gabriel on my iTunes.
• Played with Dog outside.

Mm, now rinse and repeat.

We're comin' down to the ground,
There's no better place to go.
We got snow up on the Mountains,
And the Rivers down below.

dear gravity

New title.

New look.

New Start?

who knows.

I get to go to the therapist Monday at 4.

I'm happy about that. I really want to talk to someone who doesnt know anything about anyone, who I can be totally truthful with everything.

Enjoy it all.

See you all later.

Oh! Wait, I have a treat for you!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d6wRkzCW5qI&feature=channel_page

enjoy. It makes me feel really good about myself. Really inspired. I wish I could get it on my Ipod.

Dear Gravity, You held me down in this starlit city.

were you honest?

So, ten honest things. That I just wrote and Blogger refused to publish. So they sent me back to do IT AGAIN!!!!!!!

Bastards.

;

1.) I'm scared as hell.

2.) I need to get out of this shithole town.

3.) Secrets will be the death of me.

4.) I have to much to handle. I want to just quit basketball so that its one less thing. But I can't because I'm afraid of disappointing people. Especially my Daddy, cause he's the one who taught me to never quit. But, I need thought process and time for my life.

5.) I want to go to a therapist. An impartial person I can talk to. But, I know we can't afford. And my Mom is gonna see this and come talk to me. And I will feel like a selfish shit.

6.) I try to write this blog like no one is reading. But I have to monitor what I say so I don't let something slip. See number 3.

7.) I think people expect to much of me.

8.) I wish I was more motivated.

9.) I want to date some other guy, just so Greg can see how much it fucking hurts.

10.) I'm afraid that being an adult will be boring. Of falling into the same routine, and being so depressed with my life that I want to kill myself.

;

Were you honest when you said, 'I could never leave your bed'?

have to be strong enough

http://oceanicflight316.blogspot.com/2009/01/is-it.html

take a look at this list of songs again. tell me that would not make the most awesome playlist.

hhahha.

Should I do it?

Idk.

But I know I'm making it a playlist on my Ipod.

:)

..............

So, Regents Week.

No School. Just Basketball and Masquers.

Yayy. *pitifully waves pennet*

Too much. Even without the school in the mix its no fun.

I just want to go to Masquers.

And apparently the team does much better without me tripping over things and fouling on accident. :) Or Gabby and Britney just mangling girls out there. Cause I'm pretty sure Lizz isn't a problem. She's gotten much better about hanging on to the ball. :)

Sorry, referring to the fact that they had like, there best game ever without the four of us there. We were all at All-County Auditions. Fun fun.

Oh yeah. I made into All County Chorus. Well, not really made it. I kinda like had to. Whatever. I don't really care that much. Don't see why anyone else does. Lizz made it made it. Like she actually had to try out. She did really good.

Not much else to say. Emma's home sick. Little brat.

Stand up, stand up!
We have to be strong enough.
We're trying hard to be ourselves again.

stupid insecurities

Hhahha, fun day.

Lauren? Why is you sighing at me??

Really enjoying my new monitor. It really gives me loads more desk space.

Not much to say. Happy Early Birthday Lauren.

Mkay.

I got in a fight, Over some stupid insecurities.

sitting out dances

No Tiffani tonight. :(

But we're all going to the Mall tomorrow.

Yayy.

Talked for awhile with Andy. Just cause we started talking about how we never talk.

Hhahha.

Thinking about changing my blog title.

Gotta couple ideas, but I don't know. I really like this one.

Sitting out Dances on the wall,
Trying to forget everything that isn't You.

stay pretty girl

Ho-hum. Ho-hum.

Waiting for Tiffani to come over.

Spent the last 4 hours reading one story on FP. It's really good.

My Mom got a new moniter for herself, so I got her old one. Funnily enough, that was what I wanted for my birthday.

Bombed my All-County Band audition.

That's all. Now I just wait for the Tiffani Monster to text me and let me know shes coming.

My name will save the World, so you best stay pretty Girl.