make me happy

Ohmigod, dinner yesterday was sooooooooo much fun!
The bus parked between P0nder0s@ and McD0n@lds and the coaches gave us a choice of the two.
Well, everyone but Greg, Derek, Connor, and I went over to P0nder0s@.
We hit up MickeyDs.
It was the greatest.
We all sat in a booth,
and Connor had an 0rg@sm.
Lol!!
Then we all got back on the bus and Greg, Derek, and I shared one seat like kindergarteners and watched Watchmen.
The. Best.
(Oh, and I get to keep Greg's hat :DD)

You make me happy, whether you know it or not.

lie here for hours

*happyMaxdance*
That just about sums up my mood.

The more I think, the more I wish we could just lie here for hours and reminisce.

dont tell me im ordinary

To the Fair tomorrow.
Really hope Tiff can come.
Nothing quite like large public functions with her.
(Even with Adam along, hhahha.)

If you call me at all, don't tell me I'm ordinary.

opened my eyes

1.TrigHon
2.Bio
3.English10
4.Gym Day2&4
4.WritingLab Day3
4.StudyHall Day1
5.Photography
6.SS10Hon
7.Lunch
8.ConcertBand Day1&3
8.BioLab Day2
8.StudyHall Day4
9.SeniorChorus Day1&3
9.SelectChorus Day2&4


Soo,
First three period from hell.
I have Gym with Belyea :'((
Got into Photography! :DD
Honors SS this time with y'all :))
Still in Concert Band.... :\
So's far as I know you're all in Symphonic...... :\
And if I don't know,
I'm guessing you probably all are...
I'm happy I got everything I wanted,
With some Study Halls in there.
Just gotta see who I got what with now :))

That was back when I was still, I was still in love. Til I opened my eyes and walked out the door, and the clouds came tumblin' down.

gets high with a little help

Icky oww.
I have a stupid 0varian (yst thanger.
I got super ibuprofen out of the deal but it still hurts a bit.
Spent all day yesterday at the hospital,
Got coolio bracelets from them.
Gotta take the next couple days easy.
E.G. no practice.
But still, yesterday was pretty awesome despite the fact that I had to drink literally a gallon of water and get and ultr@sound that requires pushing down on my full bladder.
So, uh, why'd ya call me?
I ran out of minutes and felt we were having a conversation.
hhehhe.
We kind of weren't due to the fact that you were lost, confused, and possibly high(jk).
But still....
Funny how 18 minutes can pretty much make up for a whole day
:DD

I get by with a little help from my friends, get's high with a little help from his friends.

i think im ready

The other day,
I redid my FP profile.
It was an attempt to describe myself.
Sort of.
And I did kind of a half ass job cause I didn't want it to be to long.
So, I wanna try now.
Dk why.
Just do.

I'm Harper.
I live in New York.
I'm 15.
16 on February 4th, 2010.
Sometimes I'm unhappy a lot.
I feel like an outsider unless I'm hanging with certain people.
I'm kind of a loner.
I hate social functions.
I've never had a boyfriend.
Like a real, treat you right boyfriend.
At the same time that I really want that,
It also scares me cause I don't know anything about anything.
I like to read.
I should read at my level more,
But they don't really write for girls at my age.
I hate being around people because in some way or another I always feel left out.
I'm not fat per say,
But I'm also not skinny.
I really have few qualms about this.
No seriously.
It could be worse.
I used to be a cutter.
It only went on for a month,
Then I was found out.
I will openly admit that sometimes I think about it.
Then I just go read MLIA because it makes me so inexplicably happy,
All thought of that just go away.
I don't know why it works,
But I'm gonna roll with it.
This has really inspired me to get a TWLOHA tattoo.
Sometimes I wish I was still little.
Cause lately everyone around me seems to be moving while I'm still standing alone.
Every once in a while someone takes the time to walk back and get me,
And I appreciate that so much.
I hardly ever come up with my own originality.
I spew quotes from everything all the time.
People seem to think I'm funny,
But I'm really not so funny.
I don't know where they get that idea.
I'm not cutting myself down bytheby.
I'm really happy with who I am right now.
Probably the happiest with me as me as I've been in a year or so.
You know, teen angst puberty shit :))
Don't take this as a cry for help.
I'm not looking for everyone to say poor Harper.
I'm me.
Fucking deal with it.
Oh yeah,
Sometimes I swear too much.
It's a problem at times.
I sing.
People seem to think its good,
But I just see it as I'm loud.
I do feel proud when this so called talent takes me places.
I kind of aspire to go to NYU and major in History,
With a minor in Art History.
The future doesn't freak me out as much as it used to.
I think that's about it.
I can't think of anything else.
So, that's me.
Ina nutshell.
:))

I'm on fire, and now I think I'm ready.

wreck

Uncertainty's a bitch.

Oh hell yes, I'm a nervous wreck.