come one down

Random moment of happiness. You know that warm tingly feeling in your tummy? It came back for a bit today.

ok, so he thinks your cute, um, i 4got what u were wearing but he leans over2me&goes "holy crap harpers hot 2day" &he kept going "look at her" haha um, yeah he thinks your giggle is cute&your smart XD

There's more but that was the happiest making part. :) Definite confidence booster.

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Listening to 'Down To The River To Pray' endlessly for some reason. It's got a haunting feel to it that I'm liking.....and its really pretty too.

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Neither harper or lizzy is talking to me. How immature of them. Im so proud of myself :)

*shakeshead* You're srsly still talking about us. Hypocritical I know, but I had to include it cause it was so absurd.

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Someones gonna come in the Art room and get white on your hand.

*facepalm*

Still, I love Art.

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Oh Mothers, Let's go down, Come on down, Don't you wanna go down?

my winona

I don't feel like typing up everything that happened.

Just some highlights that only I or a couple will understand:

• You buy handbag??
• We are living in NYC in an apartment, while Lizz lives off us. Hells yess!
• NOM!!
• MEGANOM!!
• Devon, thats where your house is gonna be!!
• OHMIGOD RATATOULLIE!! hhahha, me and Steph.
• My name is Micheal J. Caboose and I hate BABIES!
• Warthog *couPumagh*
• fucking Despereaux.....
• Noooo!!
• Truckstop hooker!! hhehhe.
• Beautiful bitches!!
• Do you guys like fish sticks!? *scream* Do you guys like fish sticks in your mouth?! *scream* .....Where is your boy tonight..?
• Ttly want Wentz's jacket. That thing was freaking awesome!!

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AHH!! I don't sit next to Amy in Select anymore!! It's a tradgedy!! I sit next to Devon and John!! Note: Devon isn't as tone death as aforethought. Hmm.

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Fuck you Johnny Depp, She's my Winona.

keep singing

Sitting.
Listening.
Hoplessness.
Insignifigance.
You won't gain anything.
You're only hurting yourself.

It's a double edged sword.
Lessaiz-faire is a wonderful concept,
Unrealistic, Unfuctionable, but wonderful.

Neither of you will give in.
Why can't people just talk,
Try to learn something of eachother?
No, We must yell our beliefs,
Hoping to sway the other's unswayable opinion.

Peace.
Quiet.
Peace.
Peace.
Unreachable.
Always looking for a way to question and win.
Unveiling the one true secret,
Man is Animal too.

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Sail around the World and tell them all to keep singing in la-la-la-la-la.
All we need's a Harmony and we'll convince the World to sing la-la-la-la-la.

the perfect shade

Who gave him my blog URL??

Seriously.

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Hmm, not much else to report.

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This night is the perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue.

those things you used to do

Code: Greg's texts.
Texts from my phone.
My comments.

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Ugh, freaking hell!!

In Art. Get this:

Can i talk 2 u?

(Can you use proper English!?)

about...?

Us.... I felt like crap and i was gonna talk 2 u last week- then i got my phone taken away...

(Talk to me in person!! And hell motherfucking yes I hope you feel like crap!! Give you some of the hell I went through for two years!!)

try talking to me like a normal person. and maybe i dont want to talk about a nonexistent us.

?like anormal person? And i dont want a noexistant us... I really dont...

(Oh really!? Is that how you felt before!! I dont think so you indecisive bastard!!)

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Then Derek and Brett took my phone and answered:

derek and brett are talking and telling you to fuck off

(hhahha.)

I havent talkd 2 them about this! At all!

(Hmm, did it ever occur to you I have friends?! And I don't care about your shit secrets anymore!! [I will admit I feel bad. I feel like I'm turning everyone against him...I had no right to do that])

Then Brett:

ur r a pusswia lol Harper told me everything. u screwed up dude.

Ok then bye.

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I told Brett that I didn't want to turn him against anybody and Brett assured me that he picked both sides. XD He said that one day he would say 'what the fuck is wrong with you Harper!?' hhahha, that cheered me up.

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Later I get this:

Can talk civily w/o asinine comments from brett?

(No!! We cannot talk!! This is not talking!! Talking is when words come from you!! Not a mobile device!! I might listen if you fucking talk to me like a real person!! YOU FUCKING TEXTROVERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

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E.Sci. Lab was ttly silent. I never even looked at him. I felt perfectly fine.

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You done started back doing those things you used to do.

seen this all before

Super mad fun last night!!

Kara(my neighbor)'s birthday party was last night and I got to go over for a couple hours.

So, who all was there?? Uhmm, Amy, Bree, Devon, Kara, Addie, Maggie, Asia....I think thats all. Nope, there was someone else who I can't think of.

It was dark when I went over, so we all sat around the fire and played "Lone Wolf". I am not a very convincing liar, hhahha.

Then we played Manhunt. Against certain people I can pwn at Manhunt. I was never caught last night. Hhahha, highlights include: Me throwing a flashlight at Devon as to evade capture(I did), Devon setting off a motion sensor light(!), and Bree pulling a hilairious diversion.

Super mad fun.

Night :)

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We've seen this all before, It's just another War.
The only difference is, We lose when it begins.

the kitchen's on fire!

Ohkay, all better :D

There is no competition, a Samuri totally trashes a Viking.

Next episode: Spartan vs. Ninja.

This one could be a little more of a fight. You get a Ninja out of his element and a Spartan just might get him. I don't know though, tell me what you think?

Oh, yeah. This is Deadliest Warrior on Spike. Fricking cool show.

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Hhahha, I love that I still know the words to Everything Is Alright.

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Head for the Hills, the Kitchen's on FIRE!

possibly maybe

How to tell if a song is dead:

Brandi adds it to her Myspace.

*facepalm*

There goes Slow Motion by Panic At The Disco.

These are the things that make me glad that people are starting to develop taste.....and ttly devestated that aforesaid statement will die as soon as Lady Gag-me or someone even worse comes along with a new song. And it's gonna take the song down with it.

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How do you go from feeling ttly good one moment after the Samuri trashes the Viking to feeling like yer being ripped in half??

One commercial. One song. And One reminder of then.

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I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you.
:(

1194 in Ireland

Meet my new band and their first album.

Lolz!!!

http://www.bestweekever.tv/2009/02/20/thanks-for-the-meme-eries-make-your-own-album-cover/

DO IT!!!

So much fun, you don't even know!!

1194 in Ireland man!!

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Under my umbrella-ella-ella-ay-ay-ay.

i dont feel like dancin

bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored 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I don't feel like dancin'.

the bookshelf spins

What's the verdict then?

Besides get your white @$$ a t4n!! XD

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The bookshelf spins,

As I pull the W3bster's from the third row,

Second from the right.

i wanna go

I'm still ohkay.

Don't worry people. I'm not a suicide watch or something.

Just feeling extremely insignifigant.

Watch Cadillac Records. You'll know what I mean.

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Do NOT go and see Knowing. Fucking shit sucked ass. So not worth a $4 movie ticket..

Was still fun though.

"What the hell was that?"

hhahha, *coughalcoholic* 1 minute later....... *cough*......alcoholic.

Stupid little children.Think they san be like us cool kids. (hhahha.)

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I wanna go where everyone feels the same.

cigarette burns ; fast women

I feel so much better!!

Last night I might have been crying, but I woke today with a "Fuck You" attitude.

Two weeks ago today, Greg said we were going out. I don't care who know. He can keep his own damn secrets.

For the next two weeks he proceeded to not talk to me once, even text. I would try to talk to him in school, but he ignored me to talk to other people. I saw him with his arm around Ciaira in the hall once.

Last night, I was finally fed up with being miserable.

I texted Tiff and asked her if I should break-up with Greg. I told her why, and she consulted Andy. (Who is probly the most knowledgeful on the subject of Greg.)

Andy says that Greg "isn't really into it anymore."

Typical. Bastardly. Behavior.

This starts me crying, my heart feels like it is ripping in half. I text Tiff and say I'm definitely breaking up with him tomorrow.

I planned on talking to him before 1st period. I did not want to text him. I wanted to face him like a normal human being.

This morning, he texted me, like the coward he is, and said he wanted to annul the going out thing. Yeah, he rly said that. He said he loved me(hah!) and we could still be friends, but everytime he looked at me he felt guilty cause we were dating.

Apparently someone told him I was gonna dump him or something. So I say, who told you?

He says, what?

I say, who told you I was gonna break up with you?

He acts all suprised then wants to know why. I tell him why, and then I say leave me alone.

He says: whatever you want :'(

I say, STFU.

And I haven't communicated with him since.

Today in Band he was holding Ciaira's hand. It was only for like 10 seconds, but it was there.

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Somehow, I don't think he ever loved me. I think he knew how I felt, that I was their. Because he said what I wanted to hear so much, I believed it was true.

But as soon as someone else catches his attention....Gone.

This is actually typical Greg.

Remember how he liked me after Courtney stopped making out with him??

Typical.

Remind me to never fall for his bullshit again.

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These children learn from cigarette burns, fast cars, fast women, and cheap drinks.

stop the earth

God, I'm so freaking miserable with this whole mess.

(Things Are Shaping Up To Be Pretty Odd.)

Boys suck.

(Little Deaths In Musical Beds.)

Honestly!! Talk to me!! For once!! Verdammt!

(I'll Be Happy For Your Life, Even If I Hate It All.)

I don't want to not talk to you for two weeks!!

(Everybody Everybody! S-S-S-S-Stand Up! Don't Be Shy!)

I'm in a funk. Cause I'm jealous. Damn little Bridges girl!!

(Wakin' Up To Early, Maybe We Could Sleep.)

And of something I shouldn't be jealous of!

(Save Me, I'm Lost.)

It's a huge mess!

(It Just Takes Some Time.)

Verdammt!

(These Children Learn From Cigarette Burns, Fast Cars, Fast Women, And Cheap Drinks.)

Shoulda, coulda, woulda.

(Everything Will Change, But Love Remains The Same.)

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I will wait for this moment,
When our lips collide and almost stop the Earth.

the attention

So appropriate don't you think??

Best I've had since You Silly, Beautiful, Oversensitive Girl.

*patsselfonback*

I wonder. Is it breaking the 'rules' *rollseyes* to talk to him before class starts? Cause I'd like to.

*smiles* Idiot.

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Hhehhe, I feel happy.

Tiffy gets to come over during break. yayy!!

We're gonna go on an adventure!!

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OHMIGOD GUYS!!!

You should see my amazing text project for Art. I'm so super proud of myself!! It actually looks good. The way I did the shading turned out ah-mazing!!

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Now, She's not bleeding on the BallRoom Floor just for the attention.

i just wanna

Blicky Blech block.

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God, I want to talk to him soooo bad. You don't even know.

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I just wanna love you.

Give Me Somplace To Go, That Isn't Here

Give me someplace to go.
That isn't here.

Let's run away,
Away from this.

Away from pain and loneliness.
Away from the feelings of emptiness.

Let's get together and go where the pavement ends.
Screw the teachers, parents, and friends.

I just want to wake up to you next to me.
Instead of leaving when dreams abandon.

LET'S GET THE HELL AWAY FROM HERE!!

You & Me,
All or Nothing,
Never surrender,
I love you.

stars and constellations

ohkay, I don't know whether to be totally mortified or proud.

So it was really loud in the Cafegymitourium yesterday. Incedently it has horrid acoustics, so you can barely hear us.

Well, when I got to my solo.....you could hear me. Very well.

I fergot how loud I could get. *blushes*

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I found anew hairpin. Hhehhe, I can wear my bow again!! :)

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O_o

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Name the stars and constellations, count the cars, and watch the seasons.

love your hair

blick bleck block!

I keep expecting my phone to buzz.
Then I remember why it won't.

Stupid things. Whatever. Today I am not caring!

Seriously.

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4 hours later...

Hi!

doodoodooo.

Been out. Gotta couple books (yayy!) and some more of my breakfast (more granola bars, yes!) and got the things on Lizz's birthday list. (They didn't have Gobstoppers, sorry.)

Now I'm all super psyched for Dinner and singing. I know my solo by heart, so I'm all good.

I rly can't wait :)

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Hello. How are you? Like your shoes, love your hair.

break down...

Is it really worth it?

My phones broken so i mite not talk 4 a wile...

Sure as hell looked fine before.

This is so fucking screwed.

Do I seriously enjoy this?

Do I enjoy barely talking and not even touching because yer too fucking scared?

I don't understand what's going on!!

Am I being a whiny bitch or is there some merit to what I'm saying?!

I'm going to bed.

Quit fucking with me and treat me like a human being with feelings.

That's all.

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I'm gonna drive and never ever slow down, I'm gonna drive until I break down.....

sweet baby

Shit, let's be selfish for a sec and think Lauren's talking about me in that yellow bit......

Fuck it I'm crying. Or about to. But it won't come!! (Shit, thats what SHE said!!)

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Further reasons I might be right about that ^

Way to stop talking to me. You honestly think suspicion will arise from us hanging out...like we did beofre....like we did in front of yer Mom. seriously?

Grr, if you act all weird tomorrow, I'm calling a quit.

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I'm black and blue now.....

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Ugh, way to suck away my happiness Lauren!! (I'm not blaming you at all!! I swear!! It's not yer fault I insinuate!!)

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Goodnight, Goodnight, Sweet Baby....

save me from being confused

blah diddy blah blah blah.

Today was interesting, no doubt. But, I really hate day 4.

*sigh* I can't tell!! That's bugging me. (i.e. It's not bad, on the contrary it's good. But I can't tell!) But no getting anyone in trouble.

Grr!!

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Not alots to say. Just very bored and should be working on hmwrk fer Friday. (yayy! for teacher's workshops!)

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Sonya seems nice but a little quiet. And a bit scared also. I get the feeling she doesn't like us er somethin. She probly won't sit with us again, huh?

Whatever, she makes Adam happ. That's good enough for me.

Btw, does anyone know any good comebacks to SexHair?? I can't think of one.....(I don't think there even is one!!)

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I feel very blah, but I shouldn't.

It's all this secret keeping. And Lauren being all blech. And barely talking with Tiffy. And not seeing Greg. And the rain today!!! I demand good weather Mother Nature!!! (And for Gym to randomly be canceled tomorrow!)

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Save Me, I'm lost. Oh Lord, I've been waiting for you.
I'll pay any cost, save me from being confused.
Show Me What I'm Looking For....