Ohmigod, dinner yesterday was sooooooooo much fun!
The bus parked between P0nder0s@ and McD0n@lds and the coaches gave us a choice of the two.
Well, everyone but Greg, Derek, Connor, and I went over to P0nder0s@.
We hit up MickeyDs.
It was the greatest.
We all sat in a booth,
and Connor had an 0rg@sm.
Lol!!
Then we all got back on the bus and Greg, Derek, and I shared one seat like kindergarteners and watched Watchmen.
The. Best.
(Oh, and I get to keep Greg's hat :DD)
You make me happy, whether you know it or not.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
lie here for hours
*happyMaxdance*
That just about sums up my mood.
The more I think, the more I wish we could just lie here for hours and reminisce.
That just about sums up my mood.
The more I think, the more I wish we could just lie here for hours and reminisce.
Friday, September 4, 2009
dont tell me im ordinary
To the Fair tomorrow.
Really hope Tiff can come.
Nothing quite like large public functions with her.
(Even with Adam along, hhahha.)
If you call me at all, don't tell me I'm ordinary.
Really hope Tiff can come.
Nothing quite like large public functions with her.
(Even with Adam along, hhahha.)
If you call me at all, don't tell me I'm ordinary.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
opened my eyes
1.TrigHon
2.Bio
3.English10
4.Gym Day2&4
4.WritingLab Day3
4.StudyHall Day1
5.Photography
6.SS10Hon
7.Lunch
8.ConcertBand Day1&3
8.BioLab Day2
8.StudyHall Day4
9.SeniorChorus Day1&3
9.SelectChorus Day2&4
Soo,
First three period from hell.
I have Gym with Belyea :'((
Got into Photography! :DD
Honors SS this time with y'all :))
Still in Concert Band.... :\
So's far as I know you're all in Symphonic...... :\
And if I don't know,
I'm guessing you probably all are...
I'm happy I got everything I wanted,
With some Study Halls in there.
Just gotta see who I got what with now :))
That was back when I was still, I was still in love. Til I opened my eyes and walked out the door, and the clouds came tumblin' down.
2.Bio
3.English10
4.Gym Day2&4
4.WritingLab Day3
4.StudyHall Day1
5.Photography
6.SS10Hon
7.Lunch
8.ConcertBand Day1&3
8.BioLab Day2
8.StudyHall Day4
9.SeniorChorus Day1&3
9.SelectChorus Day2&4
Soo,
First three period from hell.
I have Gym with Belyea :'((
Got into Photography! :DD
Honors SS this time with y'all :))
Still in Concert Band.... :\
So's far as I know you're all in Symphonic...... :\
And if I don't know,
I'm guessing you probably all are...
I'm happy I got everything I wanted,
With some Study Halls in there.
Just gotta see who I got what with now :))
That was back when I was still, I was still in love. Til I opened my eyes and walked out the door, and the clouds came tumblin' down.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
gets high with a little help
Icky oww.
I have a stupid 0varian (yst thanger.
I got super ibuprofen out of the deal but it still hurts a bit.
Spent all day yesterday at the hospital,
Got coolio bracelets from them.
Gotta take the next couple days easy.
E.G. no practice.
But still, yesterday was pretty awesome despite the fact that I had to drink literally a gallon of water and get and ultr@sound that requires pushing down on my full bladder.
So, uh, why'd ya call me?
I ran out of minutes and felt we were having a conversation.
hhehhe.
We kind of weren't due to the fact that you were lost, confused, and possibly high(jk).
But still....
Funny how 18 minutes can pretty much make up for a whole day
:DD
I get by with a little help from my friends, get's high with a little help from his friends.
I have a stupid 0varian (yst thanger.
I got super ibuprofen out of the deal but it still hurts a bit.
Spent all day yesterday at the hospital,
Got coolio bracelets from them.
Gotta take the next couple days easy.
E.G. no practice.
But still, yesterday was pretty awesome despite the fact that I had to drink literally a gallon of water and get and ultr@sound that requires pushing down on my full bladder.
So, uh, why'd ya call me?
I ran out of minutes and felt we were having a conversation.
hhehhe.
We kind of weren't due to the fact that you were lost, confused, and possibly high(jk).
But still....
Funny how 18 minutes can pretty much make up for a whole day
:DD
I get by with a little help from my friends, get's high with a little help from his friends.
Monday, August 24, 2009
i think im ready
The other day,
I redid my FP profile.
It was an attempt to describe myself.
Sort of.
And I did kind of a half ass job cause I didn't want it to be to long.
So, I wanna try now.
Dk why.
Just do.
I'm Harper.
I live in New York.
I'm 15.
16 on February 4th, 2010.
Sometimes I'm unhappy a lot.
I feel like an outsider unless I'm hanging with certain people.
I'm kind of a loner.
I hate social functions.
I've never had a boyfriend.
Like a real, treat you right boyfriend.
At the same time that I really want that,
It also scares me cause I don't know anything about anything.
I like to read.
I should read at my level more,
But they don't really write for girls at my age.
I hate being around people because in some way or another I always feel left out.
I'm not fat per say,
But I'm also not skinny.
I really have few qualms about this.
No seriously.
It could be worse.
I used to be a cutter.
It only went on for a month,
Then I was found out.
I will openly admit that sometimes I think about it.
Then I just go read MLIA because it makes me so inexplicably happy,
All thought of that just go away.
I don't know why it works,
But I'm gonna roll with it.
This has really inspired me to get a TWLOHA tattoo.
Sometimes I wish I was still little.
Cause lately everyone around me seems to be moving while I'm still standing alone.
Every once in a while someone takes the time to walk back and get me,
And I appreciate that so much.
I hardly ever come up with my own originality.
I spew quotes from everything all the time.
People seem to think I'm funny,
But I'm really not so funny.
I don't know where they get that idea.
I'm not cutting myself down bytheby.
I'm really happy with who I am right now.
Probably the happiest with me as me as I've been in a year or so.
You know, teen angst puberty shit :))
Don't take this as a cry for help.
I'm not looking for everyone to say poor Harper.
I'm me.
Fucking deal with it.
Oh yeah,
Sometimes I swear too much.
It's a problem at times.
I sing.
People seem to think its good,
But I just see it as I'm loud.
I do feel proud when this so called talent takes me places.
I kind of aspire to go to NYU and major in History,
With a minor in Art History.
The future doesn't freak me out as much as it used to.
I think that's about it.
I can't think of anything else.
So, that's me.
Ina nutshell.
:))
I'm on fire, and now I think I'm ready.
I redid my FP profile.
It was an attempt to describe myself.
Sort of.
And I did kind of a half ass job cause I didn't want it to be to long.
So, I wanna try now.
Dk why.
Just do.
I'm Harper.
I live in New York.
I'm 15.
16 on February 4th, 2010.
Sometimes I'm unhappy a lot.
I feel like an outsider unless I'm hanging with certain people.
I'm kind of a loner.
I hate social functions.
I've never had a boyfriend.
Like a real, treat you right boyfriend.
At the same time that I really want that,
It also scares me cause I don't know anything about anything.
I like to read.
I should read at my level more,
But they don't really write for girls at my age.
I hate being around people because in some way or another I always feel left out.
I'm not fat per say,
But I'm also not skinny.
I really have few qualms about this.
No seriously.
It could be worse.
I used to be a cutter.
It only went on for a month,
Then I was found out.
I will openly admit that sometimes I think about it.
Then I just go read MLIA because it makes me so inexplicably happy,
All thought of that just go away.
I don't know why it works,
But I'm gonna roll with it.
This has really inspired me to get a TWLOHA tattoo.
Sometimes I wish I was still little.
Cause lately everyone around me seems to be moving while I'm still standing alone.
Every once in a while someone takes the time to walk back and get me,
And I appreciate that so much.
I hardly ever come up with my own originality.
I spew quotes from everything all the time.
People seem to think I'm funny,
But I'm really not so funny.
I don't know where they get that idea.
I'm not cutting myself down bytheby.
I'm really happy with who I am right now.
Probably the happiest with me as me as I've been in a year or so.
You know, teen angst puberty shit :))
Don't take this as a cry for help.
I'm not looking for everyone to say poor Harper.
I'm me.
Fucking deal with it.
Oh yeah,
Sometimes I swear too much.
It's a problem at times.
I sing.
People seem to think its good,
But I just see it as I'm loud.
I do feel proud when this so called talent takes me places.
I kind of aspire to go to NYU and major in History,
With a minor in Art History.
The future doesn't freak me out as much as it used to.
I think that's about it.
I can't think of anything else.
So, that's me.
Ina nutshell.
:))
I'm on fire, and now I think I'm ready.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
doesnt feel the same
Imagine, if you will, that you are a runner.
Now, imagine you are at cross country practice.
Imagine youir coach says its an easy 4 mile day.
You concede, its really not that bad.
2 miles up a road then 2 miles back.
You set out.
Though you are last and you go slow,
You do the first 2 miles without walking at all.
You feel good about yourself.
At your turning point,
Your coach is there with water and you get a break and a drink before the next half.
Now, imagine you set out again.
You get maybe 200 meters before you suddenly feel something shift in your ankle.
You see what happens and take a couple more strides.
Now, please imagine the most excruciating pain you have ever felt course through your ankle.
You are suddenly fighting bacck tears it hurts so bad.
You stop.
You walk, without moving your ankle because it hurts so bad.
You walk this way for another 200 or so meters.
You test out a normal walk.
Feels fine.
You test a run.
You're completely fine.
A mile later you are running,
Monitoring your ankle,
But you think you can go the rest of the way with no problems.
All of the sudden,
SNAP.
In your ankle.
You wonder if it makes a noise,
Or if you just felt it.
Now the pain is back.
Worse than before.
You can feel something grinding together with each step you take.
Fighting tears again,
You walk once more without moving your ankle.
About 400 meters later,
Its fine.
You run.
You finish.
You stop and the pain comes on but not as bad.
Still enough.
You don't do strides and you can't put a lot of weight on it.
It aches all day.
2pm is PT.
You tell Nicole what happened.
She puts you on the treadmill.
You walk,
No pain or ache.
You run,
No pain or ache.
You walk/run interval for 11 minutes.
Nothing.
You get off and do your exercises.
It comes back and you wince a few times.
At the end, Nicole puts this electrical thingy on you.
Plus ice.
You walk out with that dull ache.
Throughout the day it becomes a nagging ache.
Til now, when it becomes a painful ache.
You ice.
It doesn't go away.
You are worried sick about practice tomorrow.
Can I run?
Should I run?
Will I ever run without this pain?
Shit.
The same doesn't feel the same anymore.
Now, imagine you are at cross country practice.
Imagine youir coach says its an easy 4 mile day.
You concede, its really not that bad.
2 miles up a road then 2 miles back.
You set out.
Though you are last and you go slow,
You do the first 2 miles without walking at all.
You feel good about yourself.
At your turning point,
Your coach is there with water and you get a break and a drink before the next half.
Now, imagine you set out again.
You get maybe 200 meters before you suddenly feel something shift in your ankle.
You see what happens and take a couple more strides.
Now, please imagine the most excruciating pain you have ever felt course through your ankle.
You are suddenly fighting bacck tears it hurts so bad.
You stop.
You walk, without moving your ankle because it hurts so bad.
You walk this way for another 200 or so meters.
You test out a normal walk.
Feels fine.
You test a run.
You're completely fine.
A mile later you are running,
Monitoring your ankle,
But you think you can go the rest of the way with no problems.
All of the sudden,
SNAP.
In your ankle.
You wonder if it makes a noise,
Or if you just felt it.
Now the pain is back.
Worse than before.
You can feel something grinding together with each step you take.
Fighting tears again,
You walk once more without moving your ankle.
About 400 meters later,
Its fine.
You run.
You finish.
You stop and the pain comes on but not as bad.
Still enough.
You don't do strides and you can't put a lot of weight on it.
It aches all day.
2pm is PT.
You tell Nicole what happened.
She puts you on the treadmill.
You walk,
No pain or ache.
You run,
No pain or ache.
You walk/run interval for 11 minutes.
Nothing.
You get off and do your exercises.
It comes back and you wince a few times.
At the end, Nicole puts this electrical thingy on you.
Plus ice.
You walk out with that dull ache.
Throughout the day it becomes a nagging ache.
Til now, when it becomes a painful ache.
You ice.
It doesn't go away.
You are worried sick about practice tomorrow.
Can I run?
Should I run?
Will I ever run without this pain?
Shit.
The same doesn't feel the same anymore.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
dont be scared
Feeling good is doing something you haven't done since you first started.
And before when you did it, you fell a lot and shook and were exhausted by the time you were done with 20.
But feeling good is doing it,
Only having to stop and stretch cause your back got stiff,
And doing all twenty while marveling at the fact that you have muscles.
Feeling good is also coming home,
Getting on the scale,
And not caring that the number went up by two.
Cause you know you're stronger.
And you know your gonna get better.
And you know that you can get better.
Knowing that you're gonna apologize and try to be friends.
Knowing that you really do want to try and get grades that you care about and are proud of.
Knowing you're gonna work hard.
Feeling good is knowing you care about yourself.
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own.
And before when you did it, you fell a lot and shook and were exhausted by the time you were done with 20.
But feeling good is doing it,
Only having to stop and stretch cause your back got stiff,
And doing all twenty while marveling at the fact that you have muscles.
Feeling good is also coming home,
Getting on the scale,
And not caring that the number went up by two.
Cause you know you're stronger.
And you know your gonna get better.
And you know that you can get better.
Knowing that you're gonna apologize and try to be friends.
Knowing that you really do want to try and get grades that you care about and are proud of.
Knowing you're gonna work hard.
Feeling good is knowing you care about yourself.
Don't be scared to fly alone, find a path that is your own.
Monday, August 17, 2009
im already dead
So yeah.
Theres kind of alot of stuff that happened but I really don't feel like typing it out.
And I also suck at remembering things for thingss like descriptions.
But I would like to apologize for getting annoyed with you and Adam, Tiff.
I mean I'm happy for you immensely but I will be honest in that its kind of annoying after a while.
Single girl jealousy complex, ya know??
THIS COMPUTER IS BEING ANNOYINGLY SLOW AND FREEZY!
STUPID THINGGG!!!!
It types the word like thirty seconds after I stop and wait.
Grr.
Dat da da.
Ohmigod fucking really??!
This is ridiculous!!
Ugh!!
Call 911, I'm already dead but someone should be caught and held responsible for this bloody mess.
Theres kind of alot of stuff that happened but I really don't feel like typing it out.
And I also suck at remembering things for thingss like descriptions.
But I would like to apologize for getting annoyed with you and Adam, Tiff.
I mean I'm happy for you immensely but I will be honest in that its kind of annoying after a while.
Single girl jealousy complex, ya know??
THIS COMPUTER IS BEING ANNOYINGLY SLOW AND FREEZY!
STUPID THINGGG!!!!
It types the word like thirty seconds after I stop and wait.
Grr.
Dat da da.
Ohmigod fucking really??!
This is ridiculous!!
Ugh!!
Call 911, I'm already dead but someone should be caught and held responsible for this bloody mess.
Friday, August 14, 2009
youre never gonna make it
You ever hear a song that you haven't heard in a week or two??
And you're like, woah. I really love that song.
Yeahh.
I think the song I'm Not Okay by MCR is my new theme song.
It just seems to fit everytime.
:))
"And the only thing I could seem to care about was the fact that I didn't care about anything."
^^Love that movie :))
Actually doing something social this weekend. But I get the feeling I'm gonna be a creeper in a corner watching the goings on. But that's ohkayy with me. Its more comfortable.
You can't swim, you can't dance, and you don't know karate. Face it, you're never gonna make it.
And you're like, woah. I really love that song.
Yeahh.
I think the song I'm Not Okay by MCR is my new theme song.
It just seems to fit everytime.
:))
"And the only thing I could seem to care about was the fact that I didn't care about anything."
^^Love that movie :))
Actually doing something social this weekend. But I get the feeling I'm gonna be a creeper in a corner watching the goings on. But that's ohkayy with me. Its more comfortable.
You can't swim, you can't dance, and you don't know karate. Face it, you're never gonna make it.
Monday, August 10, 2009
stars are gleaming
Ughh, I am soooo sick of my generations pop culture!!
There is a reason there's a book about us called The Dumbest Generation.
I shit you not,
I started reading it.
(I gave up though, It got monotonous.)
T@ylor L@utner was barely there in Twilight.
And he wins fresh face!?
Hello, Dev Patel?!
Are you all insane.
He's amazingly talented!!
*shakeshead*
Stupid teenage sheep.
I'd rather be a dingo.
XD
It is a special one, its never seen the sun. It only comes out in the night when the stars are gleaming.
There is a reason there's a book about us called The Dumbest Generation.
I shit you not,
I started reading it.
(I gave up though, It got monotonous.)
T@ylor L@utner was barely there in Twilight.
And he wins fresh face!?
Hello, Dev Patel?!
Are you all insane.
He's amazingly talented!!
*shakeshead*
Stupid teenage sheep.
I'd rather be a dingo.
XD
It is a special one, its never seen the sun. It only comes out in the night when the stars are gleaming.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
youre
I don't want to wait.
I like you.
But you're 'confused'.
I can sit around and wait for you to figure it out.
(Like I have many other choices.)
But,
What if your confusion just ends as friendship.
Which is ohkay.
I think being together would be hard.
We have two different circles of friends.
That'd be weird.
But,
I can't help it.
I like you.
Huh.
Wonder how this'll turn out.
You're so hypnotizing.
I like you.
But you're 'confused'.
I can sit around and wait for you to figure it out.
(Like I have many other choices.)
But,
What if your confusion just ends as friendship.
Which is ohkay.
I think being together would be hard.
We have two different circles of friends.
That'd be weird.
But,
I can't help it.
I like you.
Huh.
Wonder how this'll turn out.
You're so hypnotizing.
Friday, August 7, 2009
waste of breath
From day one I talked about getting out,
But not forgetting about,
How all my worst fears were letting out.
He said:
"Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
When breathing just passes the time,
Until we all just get old and die.".
Now talkings just a waste of breath,
And livings just a waste of death,
And why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
And this is you and me,
And me and you,
Until we've got nothing left.
But not forgetting about,
How all my worst fears were letting out.
He said:
"Why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
When breathing just passes the time,
Until we all just get old and die.".
Now talkings just a waste of breath,
And livings just a waste of death,
And why put a new address on the same old loneliness?
And this is you and me,
And me and you,
Until we've got nothing left.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
fall together
Brrrr.
I am freezing!!
My black nail polish is missing :(
I had to use my mermaidy stuff.
Reading...
Have to run later.
Bored Bored Bored.
Our water's back.
It disappeared for a bit.
Hhehhe.
Watching W@tchmen on my Ipod a lot.
Hhahha, I have NO! life.
Gonna go put my new banner up on Mysp@ce
See Ya.
We will fall together.
I am freezing!!
My black nail polish is missing :(
I had to use my mermaidy stuff.
Reading...
Have to run later.
Bored Bored Bored.
Our water's back.
It disappeared for a bit.
Hhehhe.
Watching W@tchmen on my Ipod a lot.
Hhahha, I have NO! life.
Gonna go put my new banner up on Mysp@ce
See Ya.
We will fall together.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
upon entering
For the past few days,
Even the thought of eating food makes me nauseous.
Actually looking at it is worse.
But as soon as I start to eat,
It goes away.
I'm so confused.
Even thinking about going to brush my teeth right now is making me feel sick to my stomach.
Ughh.
Went up to the falls in Ithica.
Managed to be the only person who fell on dry rock.
Scraped my hip up nicely.
Very fun.
No really,
It was.
The water was realllyy nice.
Ahh...
Oh yeah,
I also crashed through a door in on a drivers ed class on a spinning rolling chair.
That was fun.
*rollseyes*
Ick,
I'm still dead tired.
I took a 2 hour nap and I'm still ttly blah.
Tomorrow's the full moon.
Yayy :)
I love the full moon.
Any practiced Catholic would cross themselves upon entering.
Even the thought of eating food makes me nauseous.
Actually looking at it is worse.
But as soon as I start to eat,
It goes away.
I'm so confused.
Even thinking about going to brush my teeth right now is making me feel sick to my stomach.
Ughh.
Went up to the falls in Ithica.
Managed to be the only person who fell on dry rock.
Scraped my hip up nicely.
Very fun.
No really,
It was.
The water was realllyy nice.
Ahh...
Oh yeah,
I also crashed through a door in on a drivers ed class on a spinning rolling chair.
That was fun.
*rollseyes*
Ick,
I'm still dead tired.
I took a 2 hour nap and I'm still ttly blah.
Tomorrow's the full moon.
Yayy :)
I love the full moon.
Any practiced Catholic would cross themselves upon entering.
Monday, August 3, 2009
i cant fight
Soooo....Talked to Barb about my dirty dish problem.
But I kinda only remembered with about 6 minutes to go.
She gave me some stuff do to about it.
And I don't wanna do it.
The idea scares me shitless.
I really confused her,
Cause I have no aversion to other dirty things.
It's just the food for me.
But I have stuff to do,
And I'm not allowed to tell you Mom cause you could end up pressuring me and stressing me out even more which is the opposite of the idea.
I know you wouldn't do it on purpose but still.
I'm getting to be a pretty fast typist when I stop thinking about it and just type.
If I think about it I start messing up and slowing down like right now.
But when I'm not thinking my fingers just kinda work learned behavior.
Some words are super easy because I use them so much.
Like my finger goes straight to the shift button whenever I type "I".
Hhhehhe, its funn :))
Why does my heart cry? Feelings I can't fight.
But I kinda only remembered with about 6 minutes to go.
She gave me some stuff do to about it.
And I don't wanna do it.
The idea scares me shitless.
I really confused her,
Cause I have no aversion to other dirty things.
It's just the food for me.
But I have stuff to do,
And I'm not allowed to tell you Mom cause you could end up pressuring me and stressing me out even more which is the opposite of the idea.
I know you wouldn't do it on purpose but still.
I'm getting to be a pretty fast typist when I stop thinking about it and just type.
If I think about it I start messing up and slowing down like right now.
But when I'm not thinking my fingers just kinda work learned behavior.
Some words are super easy because I use them so much.
Like my finger goes straight to the shift button whenever I type "I".
Hhhehhe, its funn :))
Why does my heart cry? Feelings I can't fight.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
possibly expect
Creepy neighbor kids.
Ugh.
Family Functions.
Double ugh.
Sure, Jack is cute.
And Maddox.
But still.
Ugh.
What did you possibly expect under these conditions?
Ugh.
Family Functions.
Double ugh.
Sure, Jack is cute.
And Maddox.
But still.
Ugh.
What did you possibly expect under these conditions?
Saturday, August 1, 2009
the real me
Ohmigod, last night at work me and Mike had to count the number of volunteer hours per person...Over three years.
I got the longest consecutive stint:
22Hours some guy was here.
But he won with the most amount of hours.
Some guy spent 418 hours there.
That's just over 20 days!
Isn't that insane!?
I'm glad I didn't have to count that!
It was funny,
He got the half with the people who are always there.
Hhehhe.
Oh yeah, and Matt broke the pencil sharpener.
It was really funny.
So, I was laughing at him,
Which made him laugh,
and then he was like,
Don't laugh this is tragic and depressing!
So I said, Then why are you laughing?
Hhhahha.
So he kinda trashed the pencil sharpener job.
Then we all looked on Mr.Williams list for somethiing to do.
It was all a bunch of things.....
With no instructions as to how to do them.
One of them was 'Fix Moon'.
I am being completely serious.
He had 'Fix Moon' on his list.
We asked Mr.C to try and figure out the list.
Even he was totally baffled about the Moon thing.
It was great.
Then we had to learn how to load the paper towel thing.
And the toilet was gross apparently.
Idk, I didn't see cause I generally don't go into stalls in the guy's bathroom.
So Matt took it on himself to fix it.
I had to go get the plunger out of the girl's room.
I don't know why, but this was completely hilarious to me.
So they made fun of me for laughing.
All in good fun.
hhahha.
So, me and Mike are changing the paper towels in the Kitchen,
When Matt walks out with the gross plunger...
Which I had to return to the Girl's room :P
Fun stuff.
I also re-organized the Art Supply Closet.
While I was doing that,
The guys were doing a recycling and garbage run.
They went around the place and got all the recyclables and trash to take out.
Well, apparently Mike tripped over a cinder block outside..
And fell into a recycling bin full of water.
hhahhahhahhahhahha!
And that is all the fun stories of the evening.
:D
You can turn all the lights on and show me the real me.
I got the longest consecutive stint:
22Hours some guy was here.
But he won with the most amount of hours.
Some guy spent 418 hours there.
That's just over 20 days!
Isn't that insane!?
I'm glad I didn't have to count that!
It was funny,
He got the half with the people who are always there.
Hhehhe.
Oh yeah, and Matt broke the pencil sharpener.
It was really funny.
So, I was laughing at him,
Which made him laugh,
and then he was like,
Don't laugh this is tragic and depressing!
So I said, Then why are you laughing?
Hhhahha.
So he kinda trashed the pencil sharpener job.
Then we all looked on Mr.Williams list for somethiing to do.
It was all a bunch of things.....
With no instructions as to how to do them.
One of them was 'Fix Moon'.
I am being completely serious.
He had 'Fix Moon' on his list.
We asked Mr.C to try and figure out the list.
Even he was totally baffled about the Moon thing.
It was great.
Then we had to learn how to load the paper towel thing.
And the toilet was gross apparently.
Idk, I didn't see cause I generally don't go into stalls in the guy's bathroom.
So Matt took it on himself to fix it.
I had to go get the plunger out of the girl's room.
I don't know why, but this was completely hilarious to me.
So they made fun of me for laughing.
All in good fun.
hhahha.
So, me and Mike are changing the paper towels in the Kitchen,
When Matt walks out with the gross plunger...
Which I had to return to the Girl's room :P
Fun stuff.
I also re-organized the Art Supply Closet.
While I was doing that,
The guys were doing a recycling and garbage run.
They went around the place and got all the recyclables and trash to take out.
Well, apparently Mike tripped over a cinder block outside..
And fell into a recycling bin full of water.
hhahhahhahhahhahha!
And that is all the fun stories of the evening.
:D
You can turn all the lights on and show me the real me.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
some nights
So, Zel was really great.
I love Donna Jo Napoli.
She takes the most mundane and normal things,
Like fairy tales you've heard a million times,
And makes them new and interesting.
It amazing.
I always forget when I don't listen to it,
How much I love the song Bruised.
Jack's Mannequin :))
Makes me happyyy.
July is almost gone.
Wow.
I can't wait for August to be gone.
I want to go back to school.
For some reason,
I feel determined to do better this year.
*shrug*
So read your books and stay up late, some nights.
I love Donna Jo Napoli.
She takes the most mundane and normal things,
Like fairy tales you've heard a million times,
And makes them new and interesting.
It amazing.
I always forget when I don't listen to it,
How much I love the song Bruised.
Jack's Mannequin :))
Makes me happyyy.
July is almost gone.
Wow.
I can't wait for August to be gone.
I want to go back to school.
For some reason,
I feel determined to do better this year.
*shrug*
So read your books and stay up late, some nights.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
lace my Chucks
La ta da da....
Went swimming again today!!
After a 6 mile bike ride :DD
Woulda gone farther but Em was complaining hardcore.
hhahha.
OHMIGOD!
....idk.
Uhhh......
I lace my Chucks, I walk the aisle.
Went swimming again today!!
After a 6 mile bike ride :DD
Woulda gone farther but Em was complaining hardcore.
hhahha.
OHMIGOD!
....idk.
Uhhh......
I lace my Chucks, I walk the aisle.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
give it up for us!!
Music lyyrics are the shit.
How people can put my life in words is amazing.
Ohkay, maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic....
But I like relating in my overblown up teenaher way :)
hhahha, typo!!
But I like it.
Teenaher.
:)
So, my majorly awesome bands with their amazing-ness lyrics:
Jack's Mannequin.
He is amazing.
No lie!
Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there. I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this.
Seriously, you've never done that??
This night's the perfect shade of Dark Blue.
:)
You gotta swim. Swim for your life. Swim for the music that saves you when you're not so sure you'll survive.
Words of wisdom. This is life. Swim.
Meet at my window, meet me at my window. I will for you there, I will talk to you, no one knows.
Honestly, I hate Romeo and Juliet, but who doesn't want a balcony scene??
Ben Folds.
The biggest effing genius ever.
If you can't trust, you can't be trusted.
Sooooo true.
Now I'm haunted by the left unsaid. I never thought so much could change. Little things you said or did are part of me, come out from time to time.
Ahh!! Pure genius. With a piano.
You're the magic that holds the sky off the ground.
A love song for something real.
Andrew Bird.
This is another musical genius.
We'll fight, we'll fight, we'll fight for your music halls and dying cities. They'll fight, they'll fight, they'll fight for your nuerowalls and plasticities.
What this world has come to. Well fuck you, we'll fight.
We're what happens happens when two substances collide. And by all accounts you really should have died.
Human life. In two sentences.
Panic(!) at the Disco.
You have to listen and decipher,
But its worth it.
Hey Moon, please forget to fall down.
mm :)
I'm the new cancer, never looked better and you can't stand it.
hhahha, we're so vainn! If they thought cancer was in, everyone would get it.
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy.
*smirks*
Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention.
Forever mocking the human disease :D
Its time for us to take a chance.
True...Something I always forget...
Things have changed for me, and that's ohkay. I feel the same, I'm on way.
*nods*
Oh god, Christofer Drew.
This boy has carried me through everything.
He is the cutest little amazing-ness ever.
I'm a real big fan of yours, but I'm quite the joke to you.
Story of my life.
This pathetic excuse for a town, that holds all your memories, a lifetime of crushes and your broken dreams.
OHMIGOD! Told you, hes amazing. He can write my life.
Its so hard to pretend, like I know everything. I don't know anything!!
mmhmm.
You got dreams, and therefore I believe in you.
*meltsalittle*
I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this Girl.
Such sweetness. I love it.
Fall Out Boy.
Wow.
Boycott love. Detox just to retox.
It's sssooooo true and you know it.
I will never believe in anything again.
For the hopelessness deep inside.
Have you ever wanted to disappear and join a monestary?
Well, have you?
I can't remember the good old days..
Nope.
We're only liars, but we're the best.
You know it.
I'll be your best kept secret and you're biggest mistake.
:D
I don't care what you think, as long as its about me.
*smirks* You want to feel good? You got it right there.
I got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match.
No comment.
Nickelback.
Of the 9 songs I listen to,
I love them.
Nobody wants to be the last one left, everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
I can't even pick a single lyric from If Today Was Your Last Day. The whole song is one.
Look at this photograph, everytime I do it makes me laugh. How did our eyes get so red, and what the hell is on Joey's head?
The ultimate song of remembrance.
Moulin Rouge.
No, its not a band.
But...
It takes me away in its words.
Never knew I could feel like this. Like I've never seen the sky before. Want to vanish inside your kiss, everyday I love you more and more.
*sigh*
We could be heroes just for one day!
I can sing this entire song. From memory. And do the motions they do. :)
Your free to leave me, but just don't decieve me and please, believe me when I say I love you.
There's nothing to say.
Why live life from dream to dream? And dread the day when dreaming ends.
Practicality does not become you dear.
How wonderful life is, now you're in the World.
:D
The Acadmey Is...
Not often,
but I'm so drawn to their music.
Our time is almost, our time is almost here.
It is. Give it time.
The good things will live in our hearts.
That always makes me smile :)
Some people have it, and other people don't.
hhahha, I love this.
Green Day.
I love all their music,
But its more power ballads.
St.Jimmy is my theme song though.
And some great single lines.
We are the last call and we're so pathetic.
or
So make the best of this test known as why. Its not a question but a lesson learned in life.
or
I don't need your authority.
This is me. Defined by my music. I gotta say, Christofer and Jack get it the best. Specially Christofer. hhehhe, with his f. Yer right Tiff, completely better than a ph.
We're Son Of Dork, this is our secong gig, give it up for us!!
How people can put my life in words is amazing.
Ohkay, maybe I'm being a bit melodramatic....
But I like relating in my overblown up teenaher way :)
hhahha, typo!!
But I like it.
Teenaher.
:)
So, my majorly awesome bands with their amazing-ness lyrics:
Jack's Mannequin.
He is amazing.
No lie!
Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there. I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this.
Seriously, you've never done that??
This night's the perfect shade of Dark Blue.
:)
You gotta swim. Swim for your life. Swim for the music that saves you when you're not so sure you'll survive.
Words of wisdom. This is life. Swim.
Meet at my window, meet me at my window. I will for you there, I will talk to you, no one knows.
Honestly, I hate Romeo and Juliet, but who doesn't want a balcony scene??
Ben Folds.
The biggest effing genius ever.
If you can't trust, you can't be trusted.
Sooooo true.
Now I'm haunted by the left unsaid. I never thought so much could change. Little things you said or did are part of me, come out from time to time.
Ahh!! Pure genius. With a piano.
You're the magic that holds the sky off the ground.
A love song for something real.
Andrew Bird.
This is another musical genius.
We'll fight, we'll fight, we'll fight for your music halls and dying cities. They'll fight, they'll fight, they'll fight for your nuerowalls and plasticities.
What this world has come to. Well fuck you, we'll fight.
We're what happens happens when two substances collide. And by all accounts you really should have died.
Human life. In two sentences.
Panic(!) at the Disco.
You have to listen and decipher,
But its worth it.
Hey Moon, please forget to fall down.
mm :)
I'm the new cancer, never looked better and you can't stand it.
hhahha, we're so vainn! If they thought cancer was in, everyone would get it.
What a wonderful caricature of intimacy.
*smirks*
Well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention.
Forever mocking the human disease :D
Its time for us to take a chance.
True...Something I always forget...
Things have changed for me, and that's ohkay. I feel the same, I'm on way.
*nods*
Oh god, Christofer Drew.
This boy has carried me through everything.
He is the cutest little amazing-ness ever.
I'm a real big fan of yours, but I'm quite the joke to you.
Story of my life.
This pathetic excuse for a town, that holds all your memories, a lifetime of crushes and your broken dreams.
OHMIGOD! Told you, hes amazing. He can write my life.
Its so hard to pretend, like I know everything. I don't know anything!!
mmhmm.
You got dreams, and therefore I believe in you.
*meltsalittle*
I'm in trouble, I'm an addict, I'm addicted to this Girl.
Such sweetness. I love it.
Fall Out Boy.
Wow.
Boycott love. Detox just to retox.
It's sssooooo true and you know it.
I will never believe in anything again.
For the hopelessness deep inside.
Have you ever wanted to disappear and join a monestary?
Well, have you?
I can't remember the good old days..
Nope.
We're only liars, but we're the best.
You know it.
I'll be your best kept secret and you're biggest mistake.
:D
I don't care what you think, as long as its about me.
*smirks* You want to feel good? You got it right there.
I got troubled thoughts and the self-esteem to match.
No comment.
Nickelback.
Of the 9 songs I listen to,
I love them.
Nobody wants to be the last one left, everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
I can't even pick a single lyric from If Today Was Your Last Day. The whole song is one.
Look at this photograph, everytime I do it makes me laugh. How did our eyes get so red, and what the hell is on Joey's head?
The ultimate song of remembrance.
Moulin Rouge.
No, its not a band.
But...
It takes me away in its words.
Never knew I could feel like this. Like I've never seen the sky before. Want to vanish inside your kiss, everyday I love you more and more.
*sigh*
We could be heroes just for one day!
I can sing this entire song. From memory. And do the motions they do. :)
Your free to leave me, but just don't decieve me and please, believe me when I say I love you.
There's nothing to say.
Why live life from dream to dream? And dread the day when dreaming ends.
Practicality does not become you dear.
How wonderful life is, now you're in the World.
:D
The Acadmey Is...
Not often,
but I'm so drawn to their music.
Our time is almost, our time is almost here.
It is. Give it time.
The good things will live in our hearts.
That always makes me smile :)
Some people have it, and other people don't.
hhahha, I love this.
Green Day.
I love all their music,
But its more power ballads.
St.Jimmy is my theme song though.
And some great single lines.
We are the last call and we're so pathetic.
or
So make the best of this test known as why. Its not a question but a lesson learned in life.
or
I don't need your authority.
This is me. Defined by my music. I gotta say, Christofer and Jack get it the best. Specially Christofer. hhehhe, with his f. Yer right Tiff, completely better than a ph.
We're Son Of Dork, this is our secong gig, give it up for us!!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
were so pathetic
Ohmigod.
I dont know if that even describes it.
It was a-m-a-z-i-n-g.
Tiff and me we're in line from 11:30am to 6:00pm when they finally let us in.
We had sooooo much fun :)
I'm Bosley's Bitch.
"Do you realize how dumb you look?
Do you realize how gay you look?"
I hit her in the head with a bottttllllllleeeeeee :)
Rainbow shit.
mmhmm.
The Bravery was awesome. It was their last show so everyone was pulling all these pranks on eachother.
Animals, Strippers, and Toilet Paper.
Need I say more??
Ohkay, I will.
Amazing Guitar, Sweet Techno Dude, Popcorn, Giant Umbrellas, and Ping-Pong Balls.
Thats all I'm saying.
Oh yes, there was also:
Intense Transvestite-ation and Woodstock '94.
But that was The Bravery on Green Day stuffs.
Well, after some serious germaphobe cleaning,
We hear crackling over the sound system...
Sing us a song of the century...
After a freakout, everyone sang along.
Then it was fucking amazing.
Calebb is the shit!
Jesus of Suburbia Guitar Girl. Amazing!!
I have a ttly new appreciation for Last Night On Earth.
Mike is my new favorite person. In the World.
"Uhh, you pissed in the closet.."
"No, you don't wanna be saved."
"Its all Cocaine and Alcohol for Calebb now."
That's it man.
I'm done.
We are the last call and we're soo pathetic.
I dont know if that even describes it.
It was a-m-a-z-i-n-g.
Tiff and me we're in line from 11:30am to 6:00pm when they finally let us in.
We had sooooo much fun :)
I'm Bosley's Bitch.
"Do you realize how dumb you look?
Do you realize how gay you look?"
I hit her in the head with a bottttllllllleeeeeee :)
Rainbow shit.
mmhmm.
The Bravery was awesome. It was their last show so everyone was pulling all these pranks on eachother.
Animals, Strippers, and Toilet Paper.
Need I say more??
Ohkay, I will.
Amazing Guitar, Sweet Techno Dude, Popcorn, Giant Umbrellas, and Ping-Pong Balls.
Thats all I'm saying.
Oh yes, there was also:
Intense Transvestite-ation and Woodstock '94.
But that was The Bravery on Green Day stuffs.
Well, after some serious germaphobe cleaning,
We hear crackling over the sound system...
Sing us a song of the century...
After a freakout, everyone sang along.
Then it was fucking amazing.
Calebb is the shit!
Jesus of Suburbia Guitar Girl. Amazing!!
I have a ttly new appreciation for Last Night On Earth.
Mike is my new favorite person. In the World.
"Uhh, you pissed in the closet.."
"No, you don't wanna be saved."
"Its all Cocaine and Alcohol for Calebb now."
That's it man.
I'm done.
We are the last call and we're soo pathetic.
Friday, July 24, 2009
the weather today is slightly sarcastic
I have chalked up my extremely down mood to PMS and the rag.
Cause I feel really great now.
Ima a rockstar in my black wardrobe :D
No, I'm Johnny Cash!!
hhahhahha, fat chance!
I have to work work work later.
More cleaning I bet.
Well, it is clearing up a bit.
Maybe I will actually give a tour!
*gasp*
Doubt it.
I tag along on them.
Wearing a sign on my forehead saying:
STILL LEARNING.
hhahahahh!
If you believe me you're oddddddddd.
I'm kinda hungry.
But not for a meal yet.
I vill vait for newn!!
hhahhahhahha.
I ferget how much I looooooove Panic! At The Disco,
you know before the trashed the !
hah!
hhahhahhaha.
Just for the record, the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of a)indifference or b)disinterest in what the critics say.
Cause I feel really great now.
Ima a rockstar in my black wardrobe :D
No, I'm Johnny Cash!!
hhahhahha, fat chance!
I have to work work work later.
More cleaning I bet.
Well, it is clearing up a bit.
Maybe I will actually give a tour!
*gasp*
Doubt it.
I tag along on them.
Wearing a sign on my forehead saying:
STILL LEARNING.
hhahahahh!
If you believe me you're oddddddddd.
I'm kinda hungry.
But not for a meal yet.
I vill vait for newn!!
hhahhahhahha.
I ferget how much I looooooove Panic! At The Disco,
you know before the trashed the !
hah!
hhahhahhaha.
Just for the record, the weather today is slightly sarcastic with a good chance of a)indifference or b)disinterest in what the critics say.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
you want me
Uhmm, so many things to say.
But they're my secrets.
To
Never
Get
Out.
Not that they're bad or anything.
Just embarrassing.
Not that I've done anything wrong, or anything I'm ashamed of.
Just embarrassing.
That's all really.
Let's be the one you want me for.
But they're my secrets.
To
Never
Get
Out.
Not that they're bad or anything.
Just embarrassing.
Not that I've done anything wrong, or anything I'm ashamed of.
Just embarrassing.
That's all really.
Let's be the one you want me for.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
hurt no more
My best friend is apparently ignoring me.
My two other best friends and I barely talk.
I don't really pay attention to anyone else anymore lately.
I mean there is Tori who I see twice a week.
Thats about all I got...
But it reallys just dragging me deeper when Tiff ignores me.
:(
I don't wanna hurt no more.
My two other best friends and I barely talk.
I don't really pay attention to anyone else anymore lately.
I mean there is Tori who I see twice a week.
Thats about all I got...
But it reallys just dragging me deeper when Tiff ignores me.
:(
I don't wanna hurt no more.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
the fight
Ohkay, I'm getting seriously sick of everyone calling me out on my dirty dishes phobia.
It's serious. I'm not making this up to get out of work.
It really scares me to the core to even think about touching a dirty dish.
First my Mom has me crying on the phone about it.
Then, my Dad is trying to get me to do something about it.
Then, Emma is yelling at me to get over it, ending up with me crying again.
I mean, I joke about her OCD but have I ever really tried to get her to let up on it??
No, I allow it. Sure it gets annoying sometimes, but I deal.
But no one can deal with the fact that I CAN'T touch a dirty dish.
I'm sick of it.
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I'm getting better at typing that. I know a bunch of the letters without looking too.
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God, I am so ready for school to start again. I'm so freaking bored. On the upside, concert this weekend. Green Day :D
Lay down your arms, give up the fight.
It's serious. I'm not making this up to get out of work.
It really scares me to the core to even think about touching a dirty dish.
First my Mom has me crying on the phone about it.
Then, my Dad is trying to get me to do something about it.
Then, Emma is yelling at me to get over it, ending up with me crying again.
I mean, I joke about her OCD but have I ever really tried to get her to let up on it??
No, I allow it. Sure it gets annoying sometimes, but I deal.
But no one can deal with the fact that I CAN'T touch a dirty dish.
I'm sick of it.
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I'm getting better at typing that. I know a bunch of the letters without looking too.
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God, I am so ready for school to start again. I'm so freaking bored. On the upside, concert this weekend. Green Day :D
Lay down your arms, give up the fight.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
a needle
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we live in
hum dee dum....
idk, no one else was saying anything.
So I did.
Even if its nothing :)
But this ever changing World we live in.
idk, no one else was saying anything.
So I did.
Even if its nothing :)
But this ever changing World we live in.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
It's about time
I have a bad tendon as direct result of my flat feet.
It's supposed to regulate your arch, and I think I'm straining it or something.
Which is pinching another one on the other side of my ankle.
Lovely.
Medicine is a couple weeks of PT before I can run again.
For now, cycling...swimming...elliptical.
Which I can live with.
Feel so much better as of late.
A good dose of friends does that greatly.
Reworked my playlist.
Ohh, I should show you what I'm working on!!
I only have these two scenes cause I have third yet to be typed out.
No, I've no idea what happened in between the two.
This chick will not give me anything.
Which is kinda the point of her profession.
:)
Scene 1:
She sits at the bar, a girl no more than 16, though her ID claims otherwise. The bartender suspects, but needs the business. No one is ever in here except for the drunken regulars and a few drifters. She was paying well and had nursed several drinks so far. Cheap ones, but he knew the type. Down a couple of soft drinks before the hard liquor came out.
She stares hard at the bottom of her gin and tonic. Swirling the ice around the only remnants of Her sanity. Her past only showing through Her drink preference. It was ironic nostalgia. Her Father had preferred them. It was the only alcohol ever kept in the house. After that first time She had headed to the basement, opened the cabinet, and mixed a gin and tonic. More gin than tonic though. More than he had ever used.
She upended the glass, crunching the slivers of ice on her teeth. She spoke to the bartender, asking for a couple fingers of whiskey. Any particulars? he asked. No. She watched him pour the amber liquid in a small glass. She changed Her mind. Just fill the glass she said. You’re gonna pay fer all this right? he asked. She snorted. He took that as a yes.
She swilled the liquid and took a gulp, not even wincing at the burn in Her throat. The bartender watched warily at her obvious immunity to the liquor and wondered briefly if She were more than 16. He looked Her up and down. Legs clad in fishnets and red motorcycle boots, scuffed and worn. A small black skirt, a black t-shirt, a black jacket. Pale face, with heavy black eye makeup and red lipstick. Pretty mouth. Rather plain after that though. He found himself staring at Her mouth. Very pretty. She felt eyes on Her and looked up. She sneered at him and he dropped his eyes and mopped up the counter.
She took another gulp of the drink and smiled at Her reflection. Every bar had a mirror across from the bar now. It was the American dream She thought, Her smile growing, A house with a white fence, 2.5 kids, and a mirror across from your bar . Her smile was positively evil at the thought of the 2.5 kids. She knew why one would be in half.
She looked down at the half empty drink and drained it. Turning around and standing with a fluid motion. Not even swaying. She could hold Her liquor well. When you’ve been drinking since twelve that happened. How much for the drink? She asked the bartender. 30 bucks he answered, trying to coddle a sale. She saw through it. Smiled and slapped a 20 on the stool. Cheers, She said and walked out.
Scene 2:
She greedily licked the blood from around her mouth as the latest one squirmed, screaming silently through her gag, torn remnant of the pretty little dress fluttering at her sides. Now, She was no Hannibal Lecter, but when its spicy sticky-ness ventured near Her mouth...Well, it was damn near impossible not to take a quick taste. She found that the younger you went the better it tasted. She stared down at the girl lying on the table with a look that could only be described as curious, the girl’s slightly unfocused eyes found Hers and instantly sharpened. How old are you? She asked, making Her voice sweet and un-scary. The little girl gave Her a look of utmost confusion...Primal instincts vs. Learned behavior. The learned behavior won out this time. Tears brimmed on small blue eyes filled with hope, her little hand displayed five fingers.
She smiled and let Her own primal instincts take over. Putting Her mouth over the small slice in the girl’s wrist, She drew a deep mouthful, swallowed, then took another. She stood back up, watched the terror in the girls eyes return. Absolutely beautiful. Back to work, She decided, swiping the back of Her hand across Her mouth. She reached inside Her jacket and pulled out a small scalpel. Inspecting the weapon, She recalled something She had read once. How much shock trauma could the ‘patient’ stand? How far are they willing to go to survive? She smirked and looked at the girl. Experiment number whatever in progress. Lucky you, She purred and the little girl’s tear-stained face gave Her a funny look.
She ignored and looked for a point of attack. She climbed up on the table, straddling the girls non-existent hips. She felt a warm tingle. God, She needed a good lay. When was the last time...A few towns ago, She thought. Well, what the hell was She supposed to do now? She was in no mood for a killing now...Ah, well. It’s you lucky day sweetheart, She said to the girl. What was another witness? What was another character sketch on AMW? She was changing guises again soon anyway. How’s now? She took out the gag and unbinded her, gripping tight on the small hand She led the girl to her home, hot-wired a car, and got the hell out of there.
No, she's not a freaking vampire.
She's completely human.
Well, maybe not completely.
hhahha, yeahh.
Not much else to report.
Signing off!
Uh-huh, holy shit! It's about time you get off my dick.
It's supposed to regulate your arch, and I think I'm straining it or something.
Which is pinching another one on the other side of my ankle.
Lovely.
Medicine is a couple weeks of PT before I can run again.
For now, cycling...swimming...elliptical.
Which I can live with.
Feel so much better as of late.
A good dose of friends does that greatly.
Reworked my playlist.
Ohh, I should show you what I'm working on!!
I only have these two scenes cause I have third yet to be typed out.
No, I've no idea what happened in between the two.
This chick will not give me anything.
Which is kinda the point of her profession.
:)
Scene 1:
She sits at the bar, a girl no more than 16, though her ID claims otherwise. The bartender suspects, but needs the business. No one is ever in here except for the drunken regulars and a few drifters. She was paying well and had nursed several drinks so far. Cheap ones, but he knew the type. Down a couple of soft drinks before the hard liquor came out.
She stares hard at the bottom of her gin and tonic. Swirling the ice around the only remnants of Her sanity. Her past only showing through Her drink preference. It was ironic nostalgia. Her Father had preferred them. It was the only alcohol ever kept in the house. After that first time She had headed to the basement, opened the cabinet, and mixed a gin and tonic. More gin than tonic though. More than he had ever used.
She upended the glass, crunching the slivers of ice on her teeth. She spoke to the bartender, asking for a couple fingers of whiskey. Any particulars? he asked. No. She watched him pour the amber liquid in a small glass. She changed Her mind. Just fill the glass she said. You’re gonna pay fer all this right? he asked. She snorted. He took that as a yes.
She swilled the liquid and took a gulp, not even wincing at the burn in Her throat. The bartender watched warily at her obvious immunity to the liquor and wondered briefly if She were more than 16. He looked Her up and down. Legs clad in fishnets and red motorcycle boots, scuffed and worn. A small black skirt, a black t-shirt, a black jacket. Pale face, with heavy black eye makeup and red lipstick. Pretty mouth. Rather plain after that though. He found himself staring at Her mouth. Very pretty. She felt eyes on Her and looked up. She sneered at him and he dropped his eyes and mopped up the counter.
She took another gulp of the drink and smiled at Her reflection. Every bar had a mirror across from the bar now. It was the American dream She thought, Her smile growing, A house with a white fence, 2.5 kids, and a mirror across from your bar . Her smile was positively evil at the thought of the 2.5 kids. She knew why one would be in half.
She looked down at the half empty drink and drained it. Turning around and standing with a fluid motion. Not even swaying. She could hold Her liquor well. When you’ve been drinking since twelve that happened. How much for the drink? She asked the bartender. 30 bucks he answered, trying to coddle a sale. She saw through it. Smiled and slapped a 20 on the stool. Cheers, She said and walked out.
Scene 2:
She greedily licked the blood from around her mouth as the latest one squirmed, screaming silently through her gag, torn remnant of the pretty little dress fluttering at her sides. Now, She was no Hannibal Lecter, but when its spicy sticky-ness ventured near Her mouth...Well, it was damn near impossible not to take a quick taste. She found that the younger you went the better it tasted. She stared down at the girl lying on the table with a look that could only be described as curious, the girl’s slightly unfocused eyes found Hers and instantly sharpened. How old are you? She asked, making Her voice sweet and un-scary. The little girl gave Her a look of utmost confusion...Primal instincts vs. Learned behavior. The learned behavior won out this time. Tears brimmed on small blue eyes filled with hope, her little hand displayed five fingers.
She smiled and let Her own primal instincts take over. Putting Her mouth over the small slice in the girl’s wrist, She drew a deep mouthful, swallowed, then took another. She stood back up, watched the terror in the girls eyes return. Absolutely beautiful. Back to work, She decided, swiping the back of Her hand across Her mouth. She reached inside Her jacket and pulled out a small scalpel. Inspecting the weapon, She recalled something She had read once. How much shock trauma could the ‘patient’ stand? How far are they willing to go to survive? She smirked and looked at the girl. Experiment number whatever in progress. Lucky you, She purred and the little girl’s tear-stained face gave Her a funny look.
She ignored and looked for a point of attack. She climbed up on the table, straddling the girls non-existent hips. She felt a warm tingle. God, She needed a good lay. When was the last time...A few towns ago, She thought. Well, what the hell was She supposed to do now? She was in no mood for a killing now...Ah, well. It’s you lucky day sweetheart, She said to the girl. What was another witness? What was another character sketch on AMW? She was changing guises again soon anyway. How’s now? She took out the gag and unbinded her, gripping tight on the small hand She led the girl to her home, hot-wired a car, and got the hell out of there.
No, she's not a freaking vampire.
She's completely human.
Well, maybe not completely.
hhahha, yeahh.
Not much else to report.
Signing off!
Uh-huh, holy shit! It's about time you get off my dick.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
in lights
I had a dream last night we,
Drove out to see Las Vegas.
We lost ourselves in the bright lights,
I wish you could've seen us.
I love the fair now.
Tiffy under hypnosis is great.
So are the lights.
Double time spinning when everything but the lights is a super blur...
It's the best.
I'll see your name in lights.
Drove out to see Las Vegas.
We lost ourselves in the bright lights,
I wish you could've seen us.
I love the fair now.
Tiffy under hypnosis is great.
So are the lights.
Double time spinning when everything but the lights is a super blur...
It's the best.
I'll see your name in lights.
Friday, July 10, 2009
....Ginny?
I love how Tori can make me instantly feel better.
Between what she says, and what she tells me.
Oh yeah, I enjoyed that!
Cause Tori's had basically the same position as me and I know what she's saying isn't just prop you up,
It's ttly true :)
Thanks Tor.
Especially for the Musical.
I wish we could do it at school!
Your tall and fun and pretty,
Your really, really skinny,
....Ginny?
Nah, it just doesn't work!
Between what she says, and what she tells me.
Oh yeah, I enjoyed that!
Cause Tori's had basically the same position as me and I know what she's saying isn't just prop you up,
It's ttly true :)
Thanks Tor.
Especially for the Musical.
I wish we could do it at school!
Your tall and fun and pretty,
Your really, really skinny,
....Ginny?
Nah, it just doesn't work!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
i cant think
Been feeling very down lately.
Empty houses can do that.
Took a longer leg on my bike today.
Needed it.
Tomorrow I should shoot for Owego.
I need it.
Took the dog for a walk.
Daddy was home for all of 15 minutes.
Mad about the mess everywhere.
Which is a valid feeling.
Well, my Dad's version of slightly annoyed/mad.
Cleaned up the table for him.
Took dog for walk as I said.
Get home at 5:30.
Am home alone again for another hour.
I read a book that I've read a billion times before.
Daddy gets back....
Wait until 8:00 for Mommy and Em to show with dinner.
Mom gets pissed that no one's turned on a fan in the damned house.
Smooth for a while.
No one interacts with anyone.
Peace.
Then Emma turns on 16 and Pregnant.
She and my Mother start yelling at each other.
They can deny it but they were yelling.
I go on the computer to play solitaire.
I can't stand the ratty little silence,
I go for my Ipod.
I step on some board in the hallway from Emma's renovations.
It cracks a little under my fat ass.
My Mom starts yelling at Emma for not cleaning up.
I slide in my headphones and watch them as falsely cheery music blasts through too loud.
I came here to make you dance tonight, I don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you. Shut Up. Cause we: Won't Stop. We're gettin' down 'til the suns comin' up.
I cannot stand the scene in front of me.
I feel jittery, nervous, and confused.
Why?
I don't know.
I go outside as fast as I can walk,
Skirting ripped up carpet from Em in the backroom.
I go sit on the pool deck.
I have some peace for a minute.
Emma comes out.
She waves at me.
I wave and look away.
She wanders around.
Always catching my eye so I can't concentrate.
She finally goes away behind the shed.
Candles comes on.
Blow the Candles out, looks like a solo tonight...But I think I'll be alright.
I feel an overwhelming sense of sadness and frustration.
I come in,
Head straight to my computer.
I needed a serious blogging session.
Reading the lyrics to 6 Months really didn't help.
and I can't think of anybody else I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you.
Empty houses can do that.
Took a longer leg on my bike today.
Needed it.
Tomorrow I should shoot for Owego.
I need it.
Took the dog for a walk.
Daddy was home for all of 15 minutes.
Mad about the mess everywhere.
Which is a valid feeling.
Well, my Dad's version of slightly annoyed/mad.
Cleaned up the table for him.
Took dog for walk as I said.
Get home at 5:30.
Am home alone again for another hour.
I read a book that I've read a billion times before.
Daddy gets back....
Wait until 8:00 for Mommy and Em to show with dinner.
Mom gets pissed that no one's turned on a fan in the damned house.
Smooth for a while.
No one interacts with anyone.
Peace.
Then Emma turns on 16 and Pregnant.
She and my Mother start yelling at each other.
They can deny it but they were yelling.
I go on the computer to play solitaire.
I can't stand the ratty little silence,
I go for my Ipod.
I step on some board in the hallway from Emma's renovations.
It cracks a little under my fat ass.
My Mom starts yelling at Emma for not cleaning up.
I slide in my headphones and watch them as falsely cheery music blasts through too loud.
I came here to make you dance tonight, I don't care if I'm a guilty pleasure for you. Shut Up. Cause we: Won't Stop. We're gettin' down 'til the suns comin' up.
I cannot stand the scene in front of me.
I feel jittery, nervous, and confused.
Why?
I don't know.
I go outside as fast as I can walk,
Skirting ripped up carpet from Em in the backroom.
I go sit on the pool deck.
I have some peace for a minute.
Emma comes out.
She waves at me.
I wave and look away.
She wanders around.
Always catching my eye so I can't concentrate.
She finally goes away behind the shed.
Candles comes on.
Blow the Candles out, looks like a solo tonight...But I think I'll be alright.
I feel an overwhelming sense of sadness and frustration.
I come in,
Head straight to my computer.
I needed a serious blogging session.
Reading the lyrics to 6 Months really didn't help.
and I can't think of anybody else I hate to miss as much as I hate missing you.
Fuck. My Life.
I'm in bed right?
I hear the phone ringing.
I lay there figuring that someone else will get it 'til I realize no one is here to get it.
I get up really fast so it won't go to machine.
I step on Emma's bed next to mine and my foot ends up sinking below my metal bed frame.
When I step up it scrapes the back of my ankle.
I have a nice welt going there now.
This hurts like a mother.
I keep going for the phone.
I get out to the living room.
Though my sleep haze I see the phone resting on the back of the couch.
I put my knee down as I dive for it (No lie, I dived!) and I forget the mats to keep the dog off.
You know, the spiky ones.
I get the whole front of my shin completely mutilated.
Not cuts, but super scrapes in the form of 29 super long lines and 31 dots that just dug in horribly.
I still answer the phone.
"Hi, this is Empire Vision calling letting you know...."
Fuck. My Life.
I hear the phone ringing.
I lay there figuring that someone else will get it 'til I realize no one is here to get it.
I get up really fast so it won't go to machine.
I step on Emma's bed next to mine and my foot ends up sinking below my metal bed frame.
When I step up it scrapes the back of my ankle.
I have a nice welt going there now.
This hurts like a mother.
I keep going for the phone.
I get out to the living room.
Though my sleep haze I see the phone resting on the back of the couch.
I put my knee down as I dive for it (No lie, I dived!) and I forget the mats to keep the dog off.
You know, the spiky ones.
I get the whole front of my shin completely mutilated.
Not cuts, but super scrapes in the form of 29 super long lines and 31 dots that just dug in horribly.
I still answer the phone.
"Hi, this is Empire Vision calling letting you know...."
Fuck. My Life.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Lauren,
Lauren,
You wanna know why I call you out alot!? You wanna know why I seem to hate and judge you more than everyone else?! Its because I'm jealous. There I said it.
I'm jealous that you're small, you have a boyfriend, and every guy who comes in your vicinity won't take his eyes off you. You claim you're in a tough spot. From what I see you have basically everything I have ever wanted in life. You bitch and moan and complain because you can never have enough and it drives me crazy, seeing you with everything I've never had.
I wish I could be nicer, but I hate you for the reason that I hate myself. Just wishing I could be more like you in some ways.
Its all jealousy, ohkay? Nothing personal towards you.
-Me
You wanna know why I call you out alot!? You wanna know why I seem to hate and judge you more than everyone else?! Its because I'm jealous. There I said it.
I'm jealous that you're small, you have a boyfriend, and every guy who comes in your vicinity won't take his eyes off you. You claim you're in a tough spot. From what I see you have basically everything I have ever wanted in life. You bitch and moan and complain because you can never have enough and it drives me crazy, seeing you with everything I've never had.
I wish I could be nicer, but I hate you for the reason that I hate myself. Just wishing I could be more like you in some ways.
Its all jealousy, ohkay? Nothing personal towards you.
-Me
visit me in hell
Sorry!! My comp is still without internet and ive finally decided im inconsiderate enough to sign out my Mom from her comp/blog.
I guess a lot has happened, but it depends on who you are.
had an awesome time at Tiff's house. I can't relate to her alot (you know what I mean? Not really, but I get it. hhahha.) but she is one of the best people in my World.
Lizz is killing me with her descriptions of Florida. But hey its ohkay with me. I'm glad I can be her personal therapist again, I like trying to understand the complexity that is Lizz.
Got to meet Amy's dad at graduation last night. Those two are scary/funny alike. Its a pretty cool thing to watch.
Speaking of graduation, Lauren is giving me whiplash. Connor, Adam, Connor, Adam...Seriously, make up your mind. Don't get me wrong, I love Lauren as a person, but shes got the same thing as my sister: They're great when they arent around people. Just hanging with them one on one is the best. But get them around other people and BAM! Totally different person. And to be honest I don't like the person they become around people or persons to be exact. With Em its Brielle (thank god they dont hang out anymore!) and with Lauren its Connor, or Conor, or Brett......or pretty much any male in the vicinity besides Adam. She either becomes uber bitch or super flirt. She's only ever that person that I like, the one whos real Lauren, when Adam's around. Its annoying.
I've got nothing else to say now. Trying to explain annoyance without getting into shit took up all my thoughts.
So, send my Love a letterbomb and visit me in Hell, we're the ones going home!
I guess a lot has happened, but it depends on who you are.
had an awesome time at Tiff's house. I can't relate to her alot (you know what I mean? Not really, but I get it. hhahha.) but she is one of the best people in my World.
Lizz is killing me with her descriptions of Florida. But hey its ohkay with me. I'm glad I can be her personal therapist again, I like trying to understand the complexity that is Lizz.
Got to meet Amy's dad at graduation last night. Those two are scary/funny alike. Its a pretty cool thing to watch.
Speaking of graduation, Lauren is giving me whiplash. Connor, Adam, Connor, Adam...Seriously, make up your mind. Don't get me wrong, I love Lauren as a person, but shes got the same thing as my sister: They're great when they arent around people. Just hanging with them one on one is the best. But get them around other people and BAM! Totally different person. And to be honest I don't like the person they become around people or persons to be exact. With Em its Brielle (thank god they dont hang out anymore!) and with Lauren its Connor, or Conor, or Brett......or pretty much any male in the vicinity besides Adam. She either becomes uber bitch or super flirt. She's only ever that person that I like, the one whos real Lauren, when Adam's around. Its annoying.
I've got nothing else to say now. Trying to explain annoyance without getting into shit took up all my thoughts.
So, send my Love a letterbomb and visit me in Hell, we're the ones going home!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
the luxury
I wish I had stuff to do.
I need to stop eating my way through the day.
I need to keep myself busy so I stop being a bum.
I know I should run but I can't make myself.
I want stuff to do and places to go that aren't the same places I've always gone.
I hope its nicer tomorrow so I can bike around someplace.
School is good for me. I learn stuff, I don't eat breakfast, and I can't snack at all! It works.
Of course it doesn't help that theres all this sugary shit all over the house cause Emma can eat anything she want without worrying.
She such a fucking bitch for complaining to me that she's 'fat'.
....I think im gonna go for a bike ride. I feel like it.
We don't have the luxury to trade lives for beauty.
I need to stop eating my way through the day.
I need to keep myself busy so I stop being a bum.
I know I should run but I can't make myself.
I want stuff to do and places to go that aren't the same places I've always gone.
I hope its nicer tomorrow so I can bike around someplace.
School is good for me. I learn stuff, I don't eat breakfast, and I can't snack at all! It works.
Of course it doesn't help that theres all this sugary shit all over the house cause Emma can eat anything she want without worrying.
She such a fucking bitch for complaining to me that she's 'fat'.
....I think im gonna go for a bike ride. I feel like it.
We don't have the luxury to trade lives for beauty.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
I'm living just to watch it all go by.
I lost a piece of me and you,
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I care,
Quite alot.
You see that lately I've been on my own.
Yeah, one but one by choice.
You see that's a first for me,
This only me, yeah there's only me,
Now I realize for once, its just me.
Its just me.
Its just me and I'll find a way to make it.
There's no one left to stop me.
Here I go,
Can we take it from the top?
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me,
I've already spent living half my life undone.
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me,
I've already spent my life living half undone.
I've been talking to my Aunts and Uncles, Mom and Dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this World has called friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and want to stay,
And that's one good thing I have.
I'm gonna feel a piece of me,
I'm gonna feel it home,
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear,
Be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside,
My heartbeat on the floor,
I don't wanna hurt no more.
Yeah, it's just me.
Its just me and I'll find a way to make it.
There's no one left to stop me.
Here I go,
Can we take it from the top?
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me,
I've already spent my life living half undone.
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me,
I've already spent my life living half undone.
Let's be the one you want me for.
I used to smile but don't no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.
-Blue October
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I care,
Quite alot.
You see that lately I've been on my own.
Yeah, one but one by choice.
You see that's a first for me,
This only me, yeah there's only me,
Now I realize for once, its just me.
Its just me.
Its just me and I'll find a way to make it.
There's no one left to stop me.
Here I go,
Can we take it from the top?
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me,
I've already spent living half my life undone.
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me,
I've already spent my life living half undone.
I've been talking to my Aunts and Uncles, Mom and Dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this World has called friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and want to stay,
And that's one good thing I have.
I'm gonna feel a piece of me,
I'm gonna feel it home,
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear,
Be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside,
My heartbeat on the floor,
I don't wanna hurt no more.
Yeah, it's just me.
Its just me and I'll find a way to make it.
There's no one left to stop me.
Here I go,
Can we take it from the top?
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me,
I've already spent my life living half undone.
So I, so long.
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me,
I've already spent my life living half undone.
Let's be the one you want me for.
I used to smile but don't no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.
-Blue October
Zach's Song
I'm sick of school.
Well, no. I'm not sick of school....I'm sick of peple.
Flaky people, busy people, bitchy people, annoying people....yeah. I'm just sick of it.
You claim we're all drifting apart. I claim we all have different lives.
*cueZach's song*
Well, no. I'm not sick of school....I'm sick of peple.
Flaky people, busy people, bitchy people, annoying people....yeah. I'm just sick of it.
You claim we're all drifting apart. I claim we all have different lives.
*cueZach's song*
Friday, June 5, 2009
the distance is daring
I am seriously considering piercing something tomorrow. Just not sure what yet.
I'm thinking nose, but I really like the idea of lip.
Idk, watch. I'm gonna chicken out I guarantee.
- - - - -
Cause you had a bad day.
- - - - -
The end of the book was really sad!!
It put me in a major funk!!
- - - - -
Bipod. hhahha.
- - - - -
Yechh, today was just the icing on the downer cake. Ever since five week reports I've been all 'blahh, I don't give a flying shit.' but I do. I just don't.
The only classes I want good grades in are GS, Art, Chorus/es, and Band.
See how well that worked out Miss Low Eighties.
*shakesheadatself*
- - - - -
I seriously have decided on two tattoos I must have. Placement is still iffy but I need them.
One 'Hey Jude.' somewhere. Right now its sharpied on that spot between back and side on outside or right ankle.
And an Ankh somewhere. Considering back of shoulder or wrist. For now its on my knuckle/finger.
If you're wondering what an Ankh is, its the Egyptian symbol of life. Picture a 'T' with a loop over the crossbar.
- - - - -
Chorus has gotten completely miserable. We just sound really bad. We can't for the life of us remember any effing words and we have an attention span of about 2 seconds. Quite the miserable affair.
- - - - -
Going to bed now. Night!!
- - - - -
Thought the distance is daring, we both know how to drive.
I'm thinking nose, but I really like the idea of lip.
Idk, watch. I'm gonna chicken out I guarantee.
- - - - -
Cause you had a bad day.
- - - - -
The end of the book was really sad!!
It put me in a major funk!!
- - - - -
Bipod. hhahha.
- - - - -
Yechh, today was just the icing on the downer cake. Ever since five week reports I've been all 'blahh, I don't give a flying shit.' but I do. I just don't.
The only classes I want good grades in are GS, Art, Chorus/es, and Band.
See how well that worked out Miss Low Eighties.
*shakesheadatself*
- - - - -
I seriously have decided on two tattoos I must have. Placement is still iffy but I need them.
One 'Hey Jude.' somewhere. Right now its sharpied on that spot between back and side on outside or right ankle.
And an Ankh somewhere. Considering back of shoulder or wrist. For now its on my knuckle/finger.
If you're wondering what an Ankh is, its the Egyptian symbol of life. Picture a 'T' with a loop over the crossbar.
- - - - -
Chorus has gotten completely miserable. We just sound really bad. We can't for the life of us remember any effing words and we have an attention span of about 2 seconds. Quite the miserable affair.
- - - - -
Going to bed now. Night!!
- - - - -
Thought the distance is daring, we both know how to drive.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
you got my head in such a flurry
Got my yearbook today.
Funfun.
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Got in an epic paint/pastel battle with Brett today in art. Somehow ended up with me lying on a table and him over me, wrists locked, trying to hit the other person without getting hit.
Fun!!
Then I got the major confusion of who the hell had my bloody pen!! That died in Lunch....bastard.
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Gotta type mad carefully. Just painted my nails.
I <3 new black nail polish :))
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Flirting?? No??
IM SO CONFUSED!!!
Its like one minute your staring at me and following me around, then I don't exist.
I'm confuzzled.
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I LOST THE GAME!!!
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Blurry, blurry, you got my head in such a flurry, flurry. Wh-wh-what the fuck makes you so special? What makes you so special?
Funfun.
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Got in an epic paint/pastel battle with Brett today in art. Somehow ended up with me lying on a table and him over me, wrists locked, trying to hit the other person without getting hit.
Fun!!
Then I got the major confusion of who the hell had my bloody pen!! That died in Lunch....bastard.
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Gotta type mad carefully. Just painted my nails.
I <3 new black nail polish :))
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Flirting?? No??
IM SO CONFUSED!!!
Its like one minute your staring at me and following me around, then I don't exist.
I'm confuzzled.
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I LOST THE GAME!!!
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Blurry, blurry, you got my head in such a flurry, flurry. Wh-wh-what the fuck makes you so special? What makes you so special?
Saturday, May 30, 2009
different area codes
Wow havent been here in awhile!!
I've been writing in an actual notebook, cause I like how my cursive looks and cause as of late I don't feel like sharing.
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Noticed lately, the words 'babe' and 'baby' kinda rip a hole through me.
Thats the only lasting effect so far.
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Took mattress up to Tiffys today.
Got to hold little Chase :))))))))
Too cute.
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Se-cret val-en-tine....
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Got a 43 out of 45 on my playing quiz. Gabbie hasn't had hers yet. So, we'll see.......
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"'13 kids went down in Littleton. Who do you remember?'
'Klebold and Harris.'
'I rest my case.'"
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^^from Give a Boy a Gun. Good book. The author is amazing. This is the second book of his that I've read. Both of them have been right up my alley. The first, a social experiment about peer pressure called The Wave. This one about the two boys responsible for a school shooting. It was really unjust the way those boys were treated, and in the end they didn't even kill anyone. They were the only ones to die. One shot himself, the other had his HEAD BEAT IN by the kids who tormented him daily after he was subdued. How sick is that!? No one's even pressing charges!!
Ugh, some of those accounts by the football players and teachers are just sick and show you why this country is so fucked.
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I got money and hoes and different area codes,
I walk down the block,
They want what I got.
I've been writing in an actual notebook, cause I like how my cursive looks and cause as of late I don't feel like sharing.
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Noticed lately, the words 'babe' and 'baby' kinda rip a hole through me.
Thats the only lasting effect so far.
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Took mattress up to Tiffys today.
Got to hold little Chase :))))))))
Too cute.
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Se-cret val-en-tine....
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Got a 43 out of 45 on my playing quiz. Gabbie hasn't had hers yet. So, we'll see.......
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"'13 kids went down in Littleton. Who do you remember?'
'Klebold and Harris.'
'I rest my case.'"
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^^from Give a Boy a Gun. Good book. The author is amazing. This is the second book of his that I've read. Both of them have been right up my alley. The first, a social experiment about peer pressure called The Wave. This one about the two boys responsible for a school shooting. It was really unjust the way those boys were treated, and in the end they didn't even kill anyone. They were the only ones to die. One shot himself, the other had his HEAD BEAT IN by the kids who tormented him daily after he was subdued. How sick is that!? No one's even pressing charges!!
Ugh, some of those accounts by the football players and teachers are just sick and show you why this country is so fucked.
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I got money and hoes and different area codes,
I walk down the block,
They want what I got.
Thursday, May 21, 2009
dream
Meet me. The imsomniac.
This is my normal bedtime. Am I tired??
NO!
I'm gonna be so dead in the morning.
I'm thirsty.....brb.
I just checked behind my door for a serial killer....*facepalm*
Going to bed now......kaythxbai.
This is my normal bedtime. Am I tired??
NO!
I'm gonna be so dead in the morning.
I'm thirsty.....brb.
I just checked behind my door for a serial killer....*facepalm*
Going to bed now......kaythxbai.
last day
Thursdays suck balls.
No lie.
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Had to fish a quarter out of my bra twice today. Apparently I have "magic b00bs" cause the quarter answered every question right afterwards.
Stupid Brett.
Ah, well...at least hes back to thowing things down my shirt, rather than manic depressive weirdo.
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Glee is pretty good. I really only like to listen to the voices. They're amazing.
- - - - -
Am practicing my ears off (literally with that picc.) with my band stuff. I really want to play piccolo and get a good seat next year.
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Got a solo in chorus.
Yayy??
I don't know. I'm not a fan of the song...My voice just happens to fit spirituals.
*gagme*
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Who needs a pick me up?! I do!!
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Lunch has gotten more fun as of late.
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Nothing to say really. Just bored.
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If today was your last day.
No lie.
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Had to fish a quarter out of my bra twice today. Apparently I have "magic b00bs" cause the quarter answered every question right afterwards.
Stupid Brett.
Ah, well...at least hes back to thowing things down my shirt, rather than manic depressive weirdo.
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Glee is pretty good. I really only like to listen to the voices. They're amazing.
- - - - -
Am practicing my ears off (literally with that picc.) with my band stuff. I really want to play piccolo and get a good seat next year.
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Got a solo in chorus.
Yayy??
I don't know. I'm not a fan of the song...My voice just happens to fit spirituals.
*gagme*
- - - - -
Who needs a pick me up?! I do!!
- - - - -
Lunch has gotten more fun as of late.
- - - - -
Nothing to say really. Just bored.
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If today was your last day.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
sea blue line
"Beyond the sea blue line,
I met the love of my life.
She'd rather see me dead than face.
I love your starry eyes,
They yell 'SURPRISE SURPRISE!!'
I'm in love,
but not for long."
-Currents Convulsive ; Pierce The Veil
I met the love of my life.
She'd rather see me dead than face.
I love your starry eyes,
They yell 'SURPRISE SURPRISE!!'
I'm in love,
but not for long."
-Currents Convulsive ; Pierce The Veil
Monday, May 18, 2009
ballad of fallen angels
I just completely missed my chair and hit the floor.
Fun, yeah??
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The TV fails to tell me how to run away.
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You know I've really nothing to say. I just sit for a half hour or so and write whatever comes to mind.
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Hello, How are you? Like your shoes, love your hair.
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Smile, the World is crashing down about your ears.
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Found my Mozart CD.
:)
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I love my new curtains. They're a gauzy black. Just lovely.
Positively lovely.
- - - - -
I should just face it. I will never have a boyfriend.
I always fuck up the part before.
It doesn't sadden me anymore. It's just the fact of the matter.
To me, guys are friends. I can't make them anything more.
It just doesn't work.
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I have been illegally adopted by two people now, if only for a day.
hhehhe.
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I haven't been watching much TV as of late. Just watch movies, Skins, and then piss around on the internet.
Lovely.
- - - - -
The rain god is staring at me from above.
It doesn't say much, but its still staring.
Never blinks.
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Caliente cafe con leche.
Put 20 dollars on todays lottery.
1 ticket that's it.
Hey, a mans gotta dream.
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Emma lies. A lot.
and takes my things.
and annoys the piss outta me.
Lovely.
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Meet me. The anomaly.
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Get lost in the swells of dark strings. They can swallow you right up.
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The Ballad of Fallen Angels.
Fun, yeah??
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The TV fails to tell me how to run away.
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You know I've really nothing to say. I just sit for a half hour or so and write whatever comes to mind.
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Hello, How are you? Like your shoes, love your hair.
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Smile, the World is crashing down about your ears.
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Found my Mozart CD.
:)
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I love my new curtains. They're a gauzy black. Just lovely.
Positively lovely.
- - - - -
I should just face it. I will never have a boyfriend.
I always fuck up the part before.
It doesn't sadden me anymore. It's just the fact of the matter.
To me, guys are friends. I can't make them anything more.
It just doesn't work.
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I have been illegally adopted by two people now, if only for a day.
hhehhe.
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I haven't been watching much TV as of late. Just watch movies, Skins, and then piss around on the internet.
Lovely.
- - - - -
The rain god is staring at me from above.
It doesn't say much, but its still staring.
Never blinks.
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Caliente cafe con leche.
Put 20 dollars on todays lottery.
1 ticket that's it.
Hey, a mans gotta dream.
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Emma lies. A lot.
and takes my things.
and annoys the piss outta me.
Lovely.
- - - - -
Meet me. The anomaly.
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Get lost in the swells of dark strings. They can swallow you right up.
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The Ballad of Fallen Angels.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
turns out the lights
I think I messed something up. I just wanna be your friend again, ohkay??
Just friends :)
I honestly liked you better with her.
It was more fun.
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Swear to God that Kerr is staring at me in lunch.
Please tell me hes looking at other people too!!
I'm not being all bigheaded, its just how it kind of feels.
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Aww, Lizzy you two are so cute :)
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"I swear you and Jake know every girl in this school."
Good one Andrew...bit too true but, *sigh*
No trouble here.
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Haven't been posting alot....Just nothing to say really.
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New wallpaper for my phone. Great pic of Select. Mad fun :)
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It has been decreed. I am an opposite. I look emo but am too happy.
hhahha, the retarded cows said so. XD
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Almost done with Farsala....I AM going to tackle Tolkien next.
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WHAT IS IT WITH THE BLOODY SCOOTERS!!!!!
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"That British kid called my parenting 'bullocks'!!"
hhahha, Earl.
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I don't need people...I just happen to find them entertaining.
:)
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We'll write a Song, that turns out the Lights.
Just friends :)
I honestly liked you better with her.
It was more fun.
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Swear to God that Kerr is staring at me in lunch.
Please tell me hes looking at other people too!!
I'm not being all bigheaded, its just how it kind of feels.
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Aww, Lizzy you two are so cute :)
- - - - -
"I swear you and Jake know every girl in this school."
Good one Andrew...bit too true but, *sigh*
No trouble here.
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Haven't been posting alot....Just nothing to say really.
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New wallpaper for my phone. Great pic of Select. Mad fun :)
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It has been decreed. I am an opposite. I look emo but am too happy.
hhahha, the retarded cows said so. XD
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Almost done with Farsala....I AM going to tackle Tolkien next.
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WHAT IS IT WITH THE BLOODY SCOOTERS!!!!!
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"That British kid called my parenting 'bullocks'!!"
hhahha, Earl.
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I don't need people...I just happen to find them entertaining.
:)
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We'll write a Song, that turns out the Lights.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
whispering
Ttly skeeved off ESci lab today. It was awesome. Novi barely even noticed. He's just pissed we missed time to do the individual lab which I took home and did.
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Got an invite to Steph's party. So did Megan so thats all good.
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Harper needs to lighten up and have fun.
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Had nothing else to do last night...so I wrote out a bit of that new character with a new writing style. It doesn't have a storyline yet, but its fun to write.
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Why is one of the tag examples scooters?! Do people tag with scooters alot?! Its fricking first for gods sake!!
Stupid scooters.
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............................................??
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I could hear the angels whispering.
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Got an invite to Steph's party. So did Megan so thats all good.
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Harper needs to lighten up and have fun.
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Had nothing else to do last night...so I wrote out a bit of that new character with a new writing style. It doesn't have a storyline yet, but its fun to write.
- - - - -
Why is one of the tag examples scooters?! Do people tag with scooters alot?! Its fricking first for gods sake!!
Stupid scooters.
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............................................??
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I could hear the angels whispering.
Sunday, May 10, 2009
nervous and shy
Happy Mommy's Day.
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Experimenting with new character...all in my head though. I really wanna finish 2156.
I like my new character...Don't love her, but shes got a gritty potential.
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I think I really like you.....Wonder what I should do.
If any of you start harassing him, I will kill you.
Andy is already bad enough..
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My room is very red :)
My new black and white uber cheap bedspread is out too.
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Everytime I see you online....I smile.
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Nervous and shy, for the moment we will come alive, for the night.
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Experimenting with new character...all in my head though. I really wanna finish 2156.
I like my new character...Don't love her, but shes got a gritty potential.
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I think I really like you.....Wonder what I should do.
If any of you start harassing him, I will kill you.
Andy is already bad enough..
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My room is very red :)
My new black and white uber cheap bedspread is out too.
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Everytime I see you online....I smile.
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Nervous and shy, for the moment we will come alive, for the night.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
the whole wide World is mine...
"If I had a chance for another try,
I wouldn't change a thing.
It's made me all who I am inside.
And if I could thank God,
That I am here and that I am alive.
And every time I wake,
I tell myself a little harmless lie:
The whole wide World is mine."
I wouldn't change a thing.
It's made me all who I am inside.
And if I could thank God,
That I am here and that I am alive.
And every time I wake,
I tell myself a little harmless lie:
The whole wide World is mine."
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
hardly breathe
*raidersthemeplays*
Hhehhe, its stuck in my head.
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Nyah-nyah!! I got Mozilla!! It kicks butt!!
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Ohmigod, I thought I was gonna die when Max and Tony started making out. Whoo, then Max took his shirt off...I was like woah! That is not what I thought it would be. Much better!!
Hhahha, great moment. Great episode. Great show.
:)
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Jimmy's gonna kill somebody.
hhahha!!!!!!!!!!!
Zack is gonna cry!!
roflmao!!!
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Ugh, Greg texted me. He says he will beg. I'm like: fuck off.
You screwed up too bad this time. Leave me alone, I'm sick of you.
Textrovert.
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Tiffy, I have tried. I cannot write lyrics. I suck at it.
- - - - -
I dripped egg yolk on my keyboard today....oops -_-
The space bar was stuck to the "v"!!
hhahha, I was trying to e-mail Tanner and I kept getting a "vspace". I was like, what?!
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Ohmigod!! Tanner has a boyfriend!!
Hhehhe, apparently he's a real cutie.
*celebratesforTanner*
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Emma was really good.
Cause I can do that weirdly, I was able to pick her voice out. It was very nice. Loud enough to be heard and completely in tune. *applauds*
Lovely.
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hhahha, Derek texted me after the concert:
Is emma dating jimmie yet
ROFLMAO!!!!
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hhahha, me and Shayne were ttly killing our sisters. We were dancing during their warm-ups in the Chorus Room. Member how we used to do the beginning of each song?? Yeah, we danced to that. Megan and Emma were about to shoot us.
XD
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Sorry Lo. It's in my head and it fits perfectly. Don't know why, but it just does!!
The following statement is copyrighted by Lauren.
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The World is out, This Town can hardly breathe.
Hhehhe, its stuck in my head.
- - - - -
Nyah-nyah!! I got Mozilla!! It kicks butt!!
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Ohmigod, I thought I was gonna die when Max and Tony started making out. Whoo, then Max took his shirt off...I was like woah! That is not what I thought it would be. Much better!!
Hhahha, great moment. Great episode. Great show.
:)
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Jimmy's gonna kill somebody.
hhahha!!!!!!!!!!!
Zack is gonna cry!!
roflmao!!!
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Ugh, Greg texted me. He says he will beg. I'm like: fuck off.
You screwed up too bad this time. Leave me alone, I'm sick of you.
Textrovert.
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Tiffy, I have tried. I cannot write lyrics. I suck at it.
- - - - -
I dripped egg yolk on my keyboard today....oops -_-
The space bar was stuck to the "v"!!
hhahha, I was trying to e-mail Tanner and I kept getting a "vspace". I was like, what?!
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Ohmigod!! Tanner has a boyfriend!!
Hhehhe, apparently he's a real cutie.
*celebratesforTanner*
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Emma was really good.
Cause I can do that weirdly, I was able to pick her voice out. It was very nice. Loud enough to be heard and completely in tune. *applauds*
Lovely.
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hhahha, Derek texted me after the concert:
Is emma dating jimmie yet
ROFLMAO!!!!
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hhahha, me and Shayne were ttly killing our sisters. We were dancing during their warm-ups in the Chorus Room. Member how we used to do the beginning of each song?? Yeah, we danced to that. Megan and Emma were about to shoot us.
XD
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Sorry Lo. It's in my head and it fits perfectly. Don't know why, but it just does!!
The following statement is copyrighted by Lauren.
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The World is out, This Town can hardly breathe.
Sunday, May 3, 2009
watch the sunrise
*facepalm*
Flirting fail. Meditate?! Shit, I musta done something weird :)
Yet, I feel unembarresed and happyish......*shrug*
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My walls are red!!.........or getting there.I don't know, It's hard to tell.
Though I'm eternally grateful to the Mother who painted :)
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:)
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See the Pyramids aong the Nile....Watch the sunrise from my Tropic Isle....
Flirting fail. Meditate?! Shit, I musta done something weird :)
Yet, I feel unembarresed and happyish......*shrug*
- - - - -
My walls are red!!.........or getting there.I don't know, It's hard to tell.
Though I'm eternally grateful to the Mother who painted :)
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:)
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See the Pyramids aong the Nile....Watch the sunrise from my Tropic Isle....
Saturday, May 2, 2009
last good thing
Finally had enough sense to use a comment Tiff made ages ago. If you wash with cold water, color will stay longer.
It seems to have worked, but I'm fucking freezing.
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I need to do something besides mow the lawn today.
I knowI turned down a chance to go out with my Mom, but that didn't feel right. I think I'll go for a walk or something...
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You were the last good thing about this part of Town.
It seems to have worked, but I'm fucking freezing.
- - - - -
I need to do something besides mow the lawn today.
I knowI turned down a chance to go out with my Mom, but that didn't feel right. I think I'll go for a walk or something...
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You were the last good thing about this part of Town.
Friday, May 1, 2009
counts the minutes
ANDY STOP YELLING AT ME!!!!
Ohkay, all better. :)
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Re-working my playlist.
I'm tired of this one.
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Not much to report.
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Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there.
Ohkay, all better. :)
- - - - -
Re-working my playlist.
I'm tired of this one.
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Not much to report.
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Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
come one down
Random moment of happiness. You know that warm tingly feeling in your tummy? It came back for a bit today.
ok, so he thinks your cute, um, i 4got what u were wearing but he leans over2me&goes "holy crap harpers hot 2day" &he kept going "look at her" haha um, yeah he thinks your giggle is cute&your smart XD
There's more but that was the happiest making part. :) Definite confidence booster.
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Listening to 'Down To The River To Pray' endlessly for some reason. It's got a haunting feel to it that I'm liking.....and its really pretty too.
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Neither harper or lizzy is talking to me. How immature of them. Im so proud of myself :)
*shakeshead* You're srsly still talking about us. Hypocritical I know, but I had to include it cause it was so absurd.
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Someones gonna come in the Art room and get white on your hand.
*facepalm*
Still, I love Art.
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Oh Mothers, Let's go down, Come on down, Don't you wanna go down?
ok, so he thinks your cute, um, i 4got what u were wearing but he leans over2me&goes "holy crap harpers hot 2day" &he kept going "look at her" haha um, yeah he thinks your giggle is cute&your smart XD
There's more but that was the happiest making part. :) Definite confidence booster.
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Listening to 'Down To The River To Pray' endlessly for some reason. It's got a haunting feel to it that I'm liking.....and its really pretty too.
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Neither harper or lizzy is talking to me. How immature of them. Im so proud of myself :)
*shakeshead* You're srsly still talking about us. Hypocritical I know, but I had to include it cause it was so absurd.
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Someones gonna come in the Art room and get white on your hand.
*facepalm*
Still, I love Art.
- - - - -
Oh Mothers, Let's go down, Come on down, Don't you wanna go down?
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
my winona
I don't feel like typing up everything that happened.
Just some highlights that only I or a couple will understand:
Just some highlights that only I or a couple will understand:
- You buy handbag??
- We are living in NYC in an apartment, while Lizz lives off us. Hells yess!
- NOM!!
- MEGANOM!!
- Devon, thats where your house is gonna be!!
- OHMIGOD RATATOULLIE!! hhahha, me and Steph.
- My name is Micheal J. Caboose and I hate BABIES!
- Warthog *couPumagh*
- fucking Despereaux.....
- Noooo!!
- Truckstop hooker!! hhehhe.
- Beautiful bitches!!
- Do you guys like fish sticks!? *scream* Do you guys like fish sticks in your mouth?! *scream* .....Where is your boy tonight..?
- Ttly want Wentz's jacket. That thing was freaking awesome!!
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AHH!! I don't sit next to Amy in Select anymore!! It's a tradgedy!! I sit next to Devon and John!! Note: Devon isn't as tone death as aforethought. Hmm.
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Fuck you Johnny Depp, She's my Winona.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
keep singing
Sitting.
Listening.
Hoplessness.
Insignifigance.
You won't gain anything.
You're only hurting yourself.
It's a double edged sword.
Lessaiz-faire is a wonderful concept,
Unrealistic, Unfuctionable, but wonderful.
Neither of you will give in.
Why can't people just talk,
Try to learn something of eachother?
No, We must yell our beliefs,
Hoping to sway the other's unswayable opinion.
Peace.
Quiet.
Peace.
Peace.
Unreachable.
Always looking for a way to question and win.
Unveiling the one true secret,
Man is Animal too.
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Sail around the World and tell them all to keep singing in la-la-la-la-la.
All we need's a Harmony and we'll convince the World to sing la-la-la-la-la.
Listening.
Hoplessness.
Insignifigance.
You won't gain anything.
You're only hurting yourself.
It's a double edged sword.
Lessaiz-faire is a wonderful concept,
Unrealistic, Unfuctionable, but wonderful.
Neither of you will give in.
Why can't people just talk,
Try to learn something of eachother?
No, We must yell our beliefs,
Hoping to sway the other's unswayable opinion.
Peace.
Quiet.
Peace.
Peace.
Unreachable.
Always looking for a way to question and win.
Unveiling the one true secret,
Man is Animal too.
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Sail around the World and tell them all to keep singing in la-la-la-la-la.
All we need's a Harmony and we'll convince the World to sing la-la-la-la-la.
the perfect shade
Who gave him my blog URL??
Seriously.
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Hmm, not much else to report.
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This night is the perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue.
Seriously.
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Hmm, not much else to report.
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This night is the perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue.
Monday, April 20, 2009
those things you used to do
Code: Greg's texts.
Texts from my phone.
My comments.
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Ugh, freaking hell!!
In Art. Get this:
Can i talk 2 u?
(Can you use proper English!?)
about...?
Us.... I felt like crap and i was gonna talk 2 u last week- then i got my phone taken away...
(Talk to me in person!! And hell motherfucking yes I hope you feel like crap!! Give you some of the hell I went through for two years!!)
try talking to me like a normal person. and maybe i dont want to talk about a nonexistent us.
?like anormal person? And i dont want a noexistant us... I really dont...
(Oh really!? Is that how you felt before!! I dont think so you indecisive bastard!!)
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Then Derek and Brett took my phone and answered:
derek and brett are talking and telling you to fuck off
(hhahha.)
I havent talkd 2 them about this! At all!
(Hmm, did it ever occur to you I have friends?! And I don't care about your shit secrets anymore!! [I will admit I feel bad. I feel like I'm turning everyone against him...I had no right to do that])
Then Brett:
ur r a pusswia lol Harper told me everything. u screwed up dude.
Ok then bye.
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I told Brett that I didn't want to turn him against anybody and Brett assured me that he picked both sides. XD He said that one day he would say 'what the fuck is wrong with you Harper!?' hhahha, that cheered me up.
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Later I get this:
Can talk civily w/o asinine comments from brett?
(No!! We cannot talk!! This is not talking!! Talking is when words come from you!! Not a mobile device!! I might listen if you fucking talk to me like a real person!! YOU FUCKING TEXTROVERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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E.Sci. Lab was ttly silent. I never even looked at him. I felt perfectly fine.
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You done started back doing those things you used to do.
Texts from my phone.
My comments.
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Ugh, freaking hell!!
In Art. Get this:
Can i talk 2 u?
(Can you use proper English!?)
about...?
Us.... I felt like crap and i was gonna talk 2 u last week- then i got my phone taken away...
(Talk to me in person!! And hell motherfucking yes I hope you feel like crap!! Give you some of the hell I went through for two years!!)
try talking to me like a normal person. and maybe i dont want to talk about a nonexistent us.
?like anormal person? And i dont want a noexistant us... I really dont...
(Oh really!? Is that how you felt before!! I dont think so you indecisive bastard!!)
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Then Derek and Brett took my phone and answered:
derek and brett are talking and telling you to fuck off
(hhahha.)
I havent talkd 2 them about this! At all!
(Hmm, did it ever occur to you I have friends?! And I don't care about your shit secrets anymore!! [I will admit I feel bad. I feel like I'm turning everyone against him...I had no right to do that])
Then Brett:
ur r a pusswia lol Harper told me everything. u screwed up dude.
Ok then bye.
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I told Brett that I didn't want to turn him against anybody and Brett assured me that he picked both sides. XD He said that one day he would say 'what the fuck is wrong with you Harper!?' hhahha, that cheered me up.
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Later I get this:
Can talk civily w/o asinine comments from brett?
(No!! We cannot talk!! This is not talking!! Talking is when words come from you!! Not a mobile device!! I might listen if you fucking talk to me like a real person!! YOU FUCKING TEXTROVERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
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E.Sci. Lab was ttly silent. I never even looked at him. I felt perfectly fine.
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You done started back doing those things you used to do.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
seen this all before
Super mad fun last night!!
Kara(my neighbor)'s birthday party was last night and I got to go over for a couple hours.
So, who all was there?? Uhmm, Amy, Bree, Devon, Kara, Addie, Maggie, Asia....I think thats all. Nope, there was someone else who I can't think of.
It was dark when I went over, so we all sat around the fire and played "Lone Wolf". I am not a very convincing liar, hhahha.
Then we played Manhunt. Against certain people I can pwn at Manhunt. I was never caught last night. Hhahha, highlights include: Me throwing a flashlight at Devon as to evade capture(I did), Devon setting off a motion sensor light(!), and Bree pulling a hilairious diversion.
Super mad fun.
Night :)
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We've seen this all before, It's just another War.
The only difference is, We lose when it begins.
Kara(my neighbor)'s birthday party was last night and I got to go over for a couple hours.
So, who all was there?? Uhmm, Amy, Bree, Devon, Kara, Addie, Maggie, Asia....I think thats all. Nope, there was someone else who I can't think of.
It was dark when I went over, so we all sat around the fire and played "Lone Wolf". I am not a very convincing liar, hhahha.
Then we played Manhunt. Against certain people I can pwn at Manhunt. I was never caught last night. Hhahha, highlights include: Me throwing a flashlight at Devon as to evade capture(I did), Devon setting off a motion sensor light(!), and Bree pulling a hilairious diversion.
Super mad fun.
Night :)
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We've seen this all before, It's just another War.
The only difference is, We lose when it begins.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
the kitchen's on fire!
Ohkay, all better :D
There is no competition, a Samuri totally trashes a Viking.
Next episode: Spartan vs. Ninja.
This one could be a little more of a fight. You get a Ninja out of his element and a Spartan just might get him. I don't know though, tell me what you think?
Oh, yeah. This is Deadliest Warrior on Spike. Fricking cool show.
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Hhahha, I love that I still know the words to Everything Is Alright.
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Head for the Hills, the Kitchen's on FIRE!
There is no competition, a Samuri totally trashes a Viking.
Next episode: Spartan vs. Ninja.
This one could be a little more of a fight. You get a Ninja out of his element and a Spartan just might get him. I don't know though, tell me what you think?
Oh, yeah. This is Deadliest Warrior on Spike. Fricking cool show.
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Hhahha, I love that I still know the words to Everything Is Alright.
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Head for the Hills, the Kitchen's on FIRE!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
possibly maybe
How to tell if a song is dead:
Brandi adds it to her Myspace.
*facepalm*
There goes Slow Motion by Panic At The Disco.
These are the things that make me glad that people are starting to develop taste.....and ttly devestated that aforesaid statement will die as soon as Lady Gag-me or someone even worse comes along with a new song. And it's gonna take the song down with it.
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How do you go from feeling ttly good one moment after the Samuri trashes the Viking to feeling like yer being ripped in half??
One commercial. One song. And One reminder of then.
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I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you.
:(
Brandi adds it to her Myspace.
*facepalm*
There goes Slow Motion by Panic At The Disco.
These are the things that make me glad that people are starting to develop taste.....and ttly devestated that aforesaid statement will die as soon as Lady Gag-me or someone even worse comes along with a new song. And it's gonna take the song down with it.
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How do you go from feeling ttly good one moment after the Samuri trashes the Viking to feeling like yer being ripped in half??
One commercial. One song. And One reminder of then.
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I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you.
:(
Monday, April 13, 2009
1194 in Ireland
Meet my new band and their first album.
Lolz!!!
http://www.bestweekever.tv/2009/02/20/thanks-for-the-meme-eries-make-your-own-album-cover/
DO IT!!!
So much fun, you don't even know!!
1194 in Ireland man!!
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Under my umbrella-ella-ella-ay-ay-ay.
i dont feel like dancin
bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored bored 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I don't feel like dancin'.
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